New Project . . . and I’m Terrified
As I await Mistress’ final notes on the new book, she has been corresponding with another author she enjoys and setting up a unique project for me. It’s huge, and it terrifies me.
Mistress has asked permission for me to adapt this author’s story to align with her own deepest, darkest fantasies. This will be very much a collaborative effort, with Mistress looking over my shoulder constantly. It is going to be dark, intense, taboo, and kinky-as-fuck. I’m talking about female-led-relationships, BBC worship, pussy-free whiteboi virgins, the BNWO, extreme amounts of cum, public humiliation, and precisely the kind of face-to-face cuckolding that derailed my life last summer. Mistress believes it will be therapeutic as well as entertaining, and I have no doubt she’s right.
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We’ve had a few detailed discussions about opening scenes, and I love where Mistress’ head is at, but her fantasies are intimidating (as, of course, they should be).
Why am I so terrified? Well, for starters, this somebody else’s story that I’m messing with. It is going to be almost completely unrecognizable by the end, but it’s still another author’s words that spawned the project. As graceful and supportive as that author has been, I still don’t want to offend her, and I worry what she’ll think of all the places where Mistress’ fantasies diverge from her own.
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Even more than that, I am terrified of disappointing Mistress. The very idea of failing to accurately capture her fantasies makes me sick to my stomach. I know very well how much it excites her. I see the light in her eyes when she talks about it. My throat is sore from her enthusiasm, and I cannot find a comfortable position to sit today. She is trusting me with something special and unique, and it needs to be perfect.
I’m excited, of course, and the fact that these two amazing women have trusted me with their words and their fantasies is empowering in a way that only a true submissive could appreciate. I’m even more excited by the process of collaboration, and the potential for Mistress and I to delve deeper into fantasy and fiction together in the future. As my owner, she makes me a better person, and as my editor, she makes me a better writer.
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The worst part is, while I am frantically taking notes, trying to remember everything Mistress shared with me, I don’t yet have permission to begin writing. Mistress wants my head clear for the final polish of our true story, and only after I’ve published that is she prepared to have me switch gears.
The good news for my readers is that this fantasy collaboration won’t take nearly as long to write, and I’ll be able to get back to a publishing schedule that satisfies both Mistress and myself.
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Thank you, everyone, for your patience and your ongoing support!
