Heart’s Navigation into My Soul

Slowly painfully melt into oblivion, fight, make my way to differentiation, not game, work for concentration, live in a hazy intoxication of my makingNot wise to make assumptions leads to my demised corruption Not about my occupation still kicking today for another dayLiberation from knowledge about his medicationWhat that means in expression or the conclusionLife is a series of reflections A projection of ourselves like live cinema screenRegression into vegetation – initiation into some cruel occupation of my soul wandersThrough listless impressions. dedication to a life I know nothing ofExploration of a faceless alibi, compression of frustration, I hold backSeek restitution, restoration for what I never owned
I want to drink a bottle of wine, talk about hard timesI want to sit and drink this wine, sit and worry about my declineI want to drink this wine and think about fine timesI want to climb up high and forget realityI want to forget slime balls I meet and center on my bloodlineSettle on bloodline, like settling on a landmineKnow life is on a deadline, it’s asinineTrying to believe in divine isn’t the goldmine Want to conquer the fierce divideI want to live in oblivion I can’t take the painPain rears his ugly head disdainfullyAgain and again…Pain reverberates, vibrates in my headhear the only relief is death want to avoid that choiceLive inside of my headAvoid the world outside Daddy preached the world is a dangerous placeFilled with pitfalls, delusions of grandeur  Fear says insolation is perfect solutionLife lived inside dreams, hidden away – Daddy's waySeek relief in dreams Search for who I could beIf only I’d stop hiding awayinsane in the membrane of my brainI struggle to stay sane