Yeah...I took a break.

I know I went from daily posting to ghosting my social media channels. Nothing catastrophic happened to me. I'm not ill, or at least not any more so than I was when I was writing daily.

Something clicked in me, and even the basic daily tasks felt like mountains I had to climb every day. Add in the stress of the holidays, and the stress of both hubby and I working retail during the holidays, and my mind just started shutting down.

I had to make a decision.

I love talking on this blog and chatting on my social media outlets, but what I did know was that if I went online with the mental state I was in, I would be a huge bummer.

I guess I could have lied and posted a front of happiness, but at the heart of it, I hate being dishonest. And where I was at last month, being cheery and motivating...that would have been dishonest.

The holidays hit me hard every damn year. And I think instead of forcing myself to "get in the spirit" for 2019, I'm going to plan on taking time off. So, no matter how well I maintain a blog through the year, don't plan to see me much in November and December.

What brought me back to my blog today? What had me up and awake at 6:30am on New Years Day?

A fresh start.

I've always felt there was something incredibly beautiful about changing over the calendar and starting fresh. There is a beauty to wiping the slate clean and making a resolution or two. I'll have a few posts this week about some of my New Year traditions, so stay tuned for those. 

What I wanted to do today, is dip my toes back in the internet waters. I wanted to say I'm sorry for disappearing like I did, and I wanted to let you know that if you get to a point where you need to decide between social media and your sanity, that it's important you pick your sanity. I did, and I can't say I regret it.

​It's important to refill your own well before other people start dipping their buckets down your shaft.

via GIPHY

Okay...so maybe that wasn't the best way to say it, but you get the drift. Give me a week or so, and I promise my metaphor game will improve.

I'm ripping off my band-aid today and getting back online. I hope you'll forgive me for the disappearing act. And I hope you'll come along with me as I wiggle my way back into the digital world again.

If you're dealing with a holiday hangover, (not just the champagne hangover from your NYE toasts),  then come along with me. I'll share what I'm trying, and what works for me as I get back on track.

This morning, I went through my planners. Yes...planners. Meaning multiple. Don't judge me. 

I pulled out all the pages for the last months. I didn't even look at them. I tossed them away and started with a fresh set of monthly pages for January 2019.

I highly recommend doing this if you, like me, suffer from planner guilt. I didn't use my planners much in November and December aside from the very basic family activities and appointments. The empty ugly pages would mock me if I left them there. So I ripped those bad boys out and shoved them in a drawer. (I don't throw them away just in case I want to brave my "To Do" lists at a later date.)

Now I have a whole month filled in with the basics, and a few pre-plan items I want to work on. Like this blog. 

I took a break. But break time is over, and I'm excited to get back to work. Let's do this shit.

​~Roxy