Journal: The Gideon Rush

Surprisingly enough, I'm not going to make a habit of this. I'm actually kind-of shocked that I've written so many journal entries in a row. Well, not exactly in a row, but you know what I mean. Didn't know I had enough on my mind that I could pound so much into my poor defenseless little computer keyboard. It's good exercise, I think. Dusting off of cobwebs. Giving me a bit of a notion of how much I can write in about an hour without too much forethought or planning. I mean, sure, I knew there were a whole bunch of topics I wanted to go over, but I really didn't know how it was going to all turn out. I mean, seriously, I thought I was going to get one journal entry out of the whole mess. I was not expecting to still be writing random sentences more than a week after I started.

So, ignoring the Shakespeare project for the moment, which I really do not want to go into in any more detail than I already have because it simply can't be that hard for people to figure out what I'm doing and beat me to it especially given the rate at which I'm working on it. Stupid day job. Also, I guess I've needed the time to realize that the story is far more involved than I was hoping to get away with. I need to really think about what I'm up against. I need to plan. I need to think. I need to take the proceedings far more seriously than I was hoping to get away with. What can I say? I just like the clash of ideas that I've strung together, and I really, really want the adaptation to work.

I really don't want to comment on the fact that it is an adaptation and not something wholly original. I mean, fuck it. I don't want to just rehash. I don't want to remake. I don't want to just go with something that's been done before from a lack of any good ideas of my own. This is the kind-of thought that does still worry me about my chosen project. Sure, I'm only doing it because I'm worried about what can be sustained. I'm worried about what I can continue without becoming overly invested in the project, which I've basically failed at, I guess. I mean, just look at me. I'm already insane over the project. I'm already obsessed with the style and format of the proceedings.