When Did Your Love Die?

He used to come see me

He used to be excited about me

He used to be sure about me

Now he just can’t say for sure because it’s not that simple

He used to drive to me

But now he’s tired of it

He feels he has to do all of the traveling/driving

When did he start feeling this way?

When did the excitement change?

When did he stop missing me?

The shift is apparent.

But he says he doesn’t “think” his feelings have changed; again, another middle-of-the-road answer

He’s not straight-forward about it anymore

He’s not sure

He says he’s just rolling with it

What does that mean?

He seemed more into me when he was overseas

Since he’s been back and CAN see me, he doesn’t

Does he feel it’s too much work now for something he’s not even sure about?

We use to talk about the future in ‘we’ terms

Now we hardly talk about the future, or if we do, it’s separate

I want to stay, I want to do whatever

But he seems like he’s willing to let the cards fall

He seems like he’s ready to let it all go if need be

But he doesn’t want to be the one to end it

He’ll stop doing the things he use to

He’ll build a wall so I can be the one to do it

Is it a waste of valuable time to be with someone you hardly see, he asked

Is that what he thinks

I just want him, I never stopped

When did he stop wanting me? Wanting us?