05/03/2010

So yeah, we’ve been dating for a while. I’m so in love that I can’t even believe it. It’s a relief I don’t have to refer to her as Dismas anymore. Though I must say, I

had grown to like it. And since she kind of didn’t like it so it was easy to tease her with that. Anyway, Winnie Roland is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

To be completely honest, I’d have never even in my wildest dreams imagined I was capable of loving someone so much. I had always pictured myself as a lonely guy who would probably end up dead due to alcohol or drug abuse like the 27 club or killing myself voluntarily. Never did I imagine that I’d change so much due to an addition

of just one person into my life that I’d want to live again.

So we hang out like normal couples, we go to the movies, hold hands, eat ice cream together, go shopping together and all other normal stuff that couples like us do. More or less all the guys in my class are now jealous of me for landing the most amazing girl in school. I can feel their stares on me as we walk past them in school. I never realized it before, but it feels good when people are jealous of you.

So here I am having the almost perfect life I guess. An awesome girlfriend, no more suicidal tendencies, a peer group (even if fake), a huge social group, in short, I’ve got it all! It’s even becoming hard writing these diary entries. It’s an observation I made, if you’re happy, you write less.

Weird right? I mean just think about it. Most popular stories are about some kind of tragedy. Of course there can be a happy ending in the end but once the story turns happy, the story is finished. There’s no continuation. It’s like a reader and even the writer loses interest afterwards because the rest of the story would be monotonous.

I guess it’s also why most of the writers in the world have sadness in their hearts. It’s through this sadness that true masterpieces come to life. Just look at Shakespeare and his Romeo and Juliet. I’m a real fan of Shakespeare alright. I kind of use his name in most of my examples. Hmmm… Who else has a good book?

Arthur Conan Doyle. Yes. Writer of Sherlock Holmes. Even he introduced Sherlock as a druggie in order to create an imperfection to the otherwise perfect detective ever. Perfection is an over-rated and a quite boring concept indeed. The real excitement of life and existence is in the pursuit of perfection by an imperfect being.

Maybe Winnie Roland has filled the void in my life that pushed me into writing. And maybe it is a bad thing because I may never improve upon my current level and be chained down in the material happiness of the world. But in all honesty, I’d choose Winnie every time because void or no void, she makes my life complete. Without her, my existence itself, would be incomplete.