“It’s so hard to ask for help. Because you’re supposed to be...

“It’s so hard to ask for help.  Because you’re supposed to be ‘Mommy.’  And you never want to say: ‘I need help being Mommy.’  I carried this person for nine months.  I knew she was coming.  I felt like I should be able to handle it and I didn’t want to ask other people to stop their lives.  Especially if they had no part in making this baby.  But eventually I had to give in.  I’m just one person and being ‘Mama’ 24/7 can make you crazy.  I found myself getting frustrated that other people were going on with their lives.  I’d let things fester.  And it was unhealthy for my relationships.  I’d get heated with my mother and boyfriend.  Instead of beginning with ‘Can you help?’  I’d lose my temper, and jump straight to: ‘Why aren’t you helping?’”