"I’m harsh to you for reasonsthat I do not know of myself.It’s not that you did anythingtoday or..."

“I’m harsh to you for reasons

that I do not know of myself.

It’s not that you did anything

today or in the past but it’s

your face that makes me want

to light my own hands on fire.

It’s your face, looking at me

with love that makes me want

to run away from everything

that I’ve ever grown comfortable

with. I’m undeserving of love,

of your love, of your constant

care and consideration towards

my heart. I grow angry whenever

you tell me that I’m your

everything and that your biggest

fear is losing me - you’re lying

and I know it, because how does

anyone fear missing someone else

over the fear of missing out

on everything that someone else

can hold them back from?

I’ve never been loved like this

and it scares me. I’ve never been

loved like this and it pisses me off

because I know it’s going to be

temporary like everything else

that felt so promising in my life before

you came along with that sideways

grin that I hate to admit that I love

so much, and that I’m afraid

I’m never going to see again after

you realize how much better you’re

off without someone like me

weighing you down from every

opportunity that comes along your way

that’s better than this, than me,

than what we’ve created together.”

- Colleen Brown