CONFESSION #2 - LETTING GO OF FEAR

CONFESSION #2 - Letting go of fear. 
A lot can change in 10 years. The photo on the left is a 28 yr old girl who has a 9 month old baby. She is proud of herself for being skinny and lean. She’s skinnier at the age of 28, after her first baby, than she was in her college years. She watched everything she ate, kept a food journal and even avoided social situations to not be tempted by the wrong food and alcohol. 

I was head over heels in love when I had my first baby. It was the greatest moment of my life. But then the darkness set in and I was terrified that if I couldn’t look a certain way, no one would want to hire me as their fitness coach. I told myself a story that if I didn’t have the “look” of a fitness model, I’d be portrayed as a less knowledgeable professional. I had the education, knowledge and success stories of my students kicking ass, but it wasn’t enough for me. My only self worth was if I could see my abs that day. I lived in fear. 

Here we are 10 years later. Let’s be honest, I’m 8-10 pounds heavier now. I’ve also stopped telling myself the lies that I have to be ripped to be worth something. Today I feel better than ever. I eat bread, tacos, homemade pizzas and even have a tequila from time to time. I put coconut sugar in my coffee and love every sip of it. I’m stronger, I’m happier, I no longer live in fear. I’ve let go of that old story running in my head. I love my lifestyle! The good news is I have a choice to change it when and if I choose to.

I now know I love myself and I’m an awesome coach