Kaylee answers (and a winner is drawn)!

Kaylee has answered your questions! Some of them, anyway. As with the previous four characters, there just wasn't time to answer all of the awesome questions she received, so I picked the ones she most wanted to discuss. Next summer, we'll do it again and allow If I Die spoilers just in time for Before I Wake, which is currently scheduled for July, 2012. (I'm hoping to have a cover soon.)

For now, the randomly drawn winner of a set of five signed Soul Screamers books and a Kaylee-quote t-shirt is:

khn21 who commented on October 4, 2011 at 5:15 pm

Khn21, please email me (rachelkvincentATgmailDOTcom) with your shipping information and t-shirt size, and I'll put your prizes in the mail.

Confession: I haven't shipped any of the t-shirt prizes yet. But they will go out soon. The Emma, Sabine, and Tod shirts are designed, but we're still working on the Nash and Kaylee shirts. In case you haven't seen them, here're the ones we have so far:



These and more are available at cost (we make no profit from them) here.

And now, Kaylee answers...

william says: Kaylee, With everything that has happened to you now that you know what you are; do you wish you would have stayed ignorant to it?
Kaylee: No. If I never found out what I am, I would have continued to think I’m crazy, and my abilities wouldn’t have been any use to anyone else.

Dalia says: Kaylee: When Tod asked you to help him to save Addy’s soul he didn’t think twice about putting your life in danger to accomplish what he wanted. […] When Nash became addicted to Frost his decision making was effected by the drug. You’ve made the statement that when someone is under an influence like that they aren’t in their right mind (as with the situation with Mr. Beck). Why, then, were you able to fogive Tod, but not Nash?
Kaylee: I’m not sure why everyone keeps saying that. I did forgive Nash. I know he didn’t do any of that on purpose. But forgetting—trusting—is a much more complicated issue. It’s not as easy as snapping my fingers.

[The rest of Kaylee's answer is in the Wordpress post, in white, because it felt a little spoilery to me. Highlight below if you want to see it.]

Gabby says: Kaylee, if you could go back to that night at the bar when you actually met Nash, would you still want to have met him, even with everything that’s happened since then?
Kaylee: Yes, of course! I wouldn’t give up these past months with Nash for anything. He was the first person to be truly honest with me about who and what I am. No matter what happens next, I wouldn’t undo meeting him. Or loving him. And I hope he feels the same.

Vivien says: Kaylee: If you could undo Nash getting exposed to Demon Breath, would you? Or do you think that adds to his character?
Kaylee: Of course I would. I would never wish what he’s gone through on anyone, even if that would change some of the good things that came after. If those good things were meant to be, they would come about eventually, one way or another.

Kelli Wilson says: Kaylee: If you could find your mom in the afterlife and ask her one question, what would it be?
Kaylee: I would ask her if she ever regrets her decision.

Nicole W. says: Kaylee, do you ever feel guilty about living your mom’s life even though it wasn’t your choice to?
Kaylee: Every single day.

Marie R says: Why didn’t you insist on Nash cutting Sabine out of his life when he offered to get back with you?
Kaylee: Because that wouldn’t have been fair. I made it clear where I stood about her personally, and about what she was trying to do. But I don’t have the right to tell him who to be friends with. The opposite is also true.

Sarita Lopez says: Kaylee, You yourself realized that Sabine really is good for Nash. Why didn’t you just let her be with him?? Was it because you just didn’t want to lose or were you only thinking about yourself and not about what Nash needs?!
Kaylee: People keep asking this one too, but I think you’re all glossing over the most important fact here: who Nash decides to be with isn’t up to me. It’s not up to Sabine either. That’s Nash’s decision. Even if I’d wanted to “let Sabine have him,” it wouldn’t have been that simple. He chose me. That was his call.

Sarah M. says: Kaylee, do you think that you and Sophie will ever get along and why do you think she dislikes you so much?
Kaylee: I don’t think she dislikes me. I think I’m simply in her way.

Michele-Venessa Neubauer says: Kaylee, Do you think if you and Sabine didn’t both want Nash that you and her would have been or could be friends?
Kaylee: I doubt Sabine and I ever would have met, without Nash pulling us together.

Amy says: Hi Kaylee! You always give a lot of thought to the emotions swirling in Nash’s gorgeous eyes. However, what do you make of Tod’s emotions and his sudden inability to keep his eyes from swirling when around you?
Kaylee: I don’t know. Isn’t that weird?

Nicole S. says: If you could bring back any of these people who would you choose? Your mom, your aunt, or Addison??
Kaylee: My mom.

Camille says: Kaylee, do you hate your father for leaving you behind for 13 years?
Kaylee: No. I could never hate my dad. I don’t have much hate in me, honestly. Except for Avari. I hate him completely.

Maria C says: Kaylee, Alec has been in Avari’s tender mercies for all those years, and you really hardly know him. if you find out that he did something unforgivable to survive, what would you do?
Kaylee: I would sympathize and try to help him forgive himself. Alec is a really good guy. If he’s done something wrong to save himself, it’s killing him on the inside. I can say that without any doubt.

bobby says: was there ever a moment when you viewed Alec in a romantic way?
Kaylee: No. He’s very much a brother figure. Maybe like an uncle. He’s old and kinda wise, you know.

Kimberley S. says: Kaylee, do you ever think that everything was ruined by that balloon with demon’s breath popping in Nash’s face and that if that hadn’t happened you and Nash would still be a “perfect couple”?
Kaylee: I honestly don’t know. Sometimes I think that popped balloon was the most tragic thing to happen to our relationship. But then I realize that that pop was an accident. The real tragedy was in the decisions we made. Both of us. We both messed up. It’s not what happens to you that really matters. It’s how you handle the fallout. Don’t you think?

Zella Jewett says: Do you ever think your relationship with Nash and his family would be different if Todd never died and became a reaper? If so, how do you think that it would be different?
Kaylee: If Tod had never died, Nash and his mom never would have moved to my town, and I never would have met any of them. Sometimes wonderful things come out of tragedy. That’s what I keep telling myself, anyway…

Thanks so much to everyone who followed the If I Die blog tour! A grand prize winner will be announced soon, but it's not to late to enter. Click here for details. And thanks again to everyone who asked the characters questions during this past month! It's been a blast.

Next week, we will resume giveaways of the foreign editions currently taking up too much space in my office... ;)