Too Fat To Admit It

So, about this time every year it seems I really take a hard look at myself physically, and I vow up and down 10 times over that I'm going to do something about this added packed on fat. I won't call it a pudge because to do so would be to lessen what it is. I'm a fat woman.  I have noticed that I intentionally avoid mirrors and I don't glance at myself as I pass by a shiny window either. I know what I'll see; a fat woman. I tried the "Paleo" diet, and I won't say it didn't work, I will say I didn't work it well. I did however learn things from it, and I will incorporate that into my new diet and life style plan. I just don't think a person can diet without changing their life style; I can't anyway.

I didn't go to Thanksgiving dinner with the family this year, opting instead to stay at home with my daughter Laura.  We ate a smaller, more reasonable dinner consisting of baked chicken, yams, green beans, grand biscuits, and a piece of pumpkin pie. We drank water.  You can't get too much water. If I had been at my mom's I would have eaten 3x as much as I need to, and I would have had the belly aches to show for it later.  Sometimes the hardest things to do when you're dieting or changing your eating habits is to avoid loved ones. My family is fat, I'm not going to be kind about it; there are many more obese people in my family than there are healthy. I'm throwing myself in that ring as well. My kids are all healthy, my sister Linda, my mom, and my sister Andie is healthy now, having spent a great deal of money on stomach surgery after many years of over eating and neglect. I was thin for many years, well into my early 30's, but when I lost it, and began eating and not working out, I really put on the pounds. I've been heavy now for 10 solid years I know, and off and on the 10 years before that. It's time to stop the madness.

I could make up the best excuses, and there is truly a kernel of truth to them all, but the bottom line is, I need to lose 60 pounds. I'm hovering 205 pounds at 5'7" tall, and that's simply too big. I wear size 18 jeans, XL dresses, if I wear dresses at all, and I can't put a belt around my waist, I wouldn't even know what size of a belt I would need to buy! I'm not kidding, it would be a 42 inch belt I'm sure. All that changes now!

For the past 3 days I've been on my diet and changing my ways when it comes to food and exercise.  I'm 56 years old as of 4 days ago, and it's time I start helping my body, not hurting it. I've been drinking tea with apple cider vinegar at least 2x a day, and I add lemon or lime to it. I add honey, cinnamon, and even clove oil. I think I drank 3 cups the first day, and 2 yesterday, I'll have 3 today total. That's the start of the "change" from drinking regular water. I never drink sweet drinks like cola or sweet tea, or even Kool-aid. I really only drink water and  I'll have a coffee in the morning.  My food portions are way down, 1/2 of what I used to eat, and I don't miss it. I don't. In fact, yesterday I ate something I shouldn't have, 1/2 a cheeseburger from Freddy's (and fries) and I thought I was going to vomit. Thank God I was able to eliminate it today! That's another good thing, you will eliminate a great deal more with this "change" of drinking ACV and either lime or lemon. I drink about 8-10 ounces hot in a tea, sometimes adding a tea bag as a matter of fact, and I put 1 tablespoon of honey, and 2 tablespoons of ACV with a 1/2 lemon or whole lime. Good stuff.

So, what I will do, and I'll make myself a promise so I do it, I'll write here every day and just sort of go over what happens and what I feel. I may turn it into a book - - you never know. If I get too gross, or talk about poop to the point that you don't want to read my blog, don't. It's MY BLOG. I won't apologize for that. I will say that I will get nasty at times, so you may want to read with caution. Well, that's about it. I'm on day 3 so it's not that exciting yet. I did have a moment, but I'll talk about it tomorrow and put up a warning sign first. LOL