Beloved Master, Could You please pass Your comments about the difference between the spiritual question, 'Who am I?' (which Ramana Maharishi speaks about) and the psychological trauma of 'Who am I?' (the state of confusion).
It is nothing but the difference between the ego
and the self. You see: the ego is just the false
idea which you have of who you are; it is the
work of the mind. There is actually no
relationship between it and reality.
Your ego is perfectly fine for you as long as you
are dealing only with the world, because in the
world you are mainly dealing with the egos of
other people. The moment the mind is dropped,
the ego goes with it. It is here that you discover
who you really are. You understand that what
you thought yourself to be and what you really
are, are really at two separate poles. You
understand that your reality is totally different
and has nothing to do with the mind.
It is like this: you have never tasted sugar
before. You come to me and ask, 'What does
sugar taste like?' What will I say? I will only
say that it is sweet. But will you be able to
understand? Can you understand what 'sweet'
is? No! You need to experience it.
So, in order to understand what 'dropping the
ego' is, you must first experience it. As of now,
you have not reached the ultimate reality. You
are still somewhere between truth and falsity;
oscillating between the two.
Yes, it is better than false, but much lower than
the real. You still have the separation between
you and Existence. It is this separation which
prevents you from seeing reality as it is. To see
it as it is, is the ultimate blessing. And it is your
birthright.
To understand your problem, here is an analogy.
You have a wall all around you. You yourself
have built this wall; a nice steel wall. And inside
this wall, you are thinking that you are seeing
reality.
This is the game that ego plays on you. There is
a whole other dimension waiting to be seen,
waiting to be experienced, and your ego keeps
you thinking that you have seen all that needs to
be seen. If you break open these walls, you will
see the reality of the whole of Existence.
But first, you must get rid of the ego; the ego
which prevents you from knowing, from really
seeing.
There are some religions like Zen or Hinduism
which take you to the end of your spiritual path.
It is religions like these which are not only
interested in clearing you of the ego, but also go
a step further: They take you until the point
where there is nothing more to drop; where even
the self has disappeared.
Right now, you are like a house that is full; you
are having a party within you. There are so
many personalities, so many thoughts, so many
false ideas contradicting each other. A noisy
party is going on within you. When you start
moving deeper within you, trying to understand
your reality, the party starts winding up; the
guests start to leave. The party is no more; your
house becomes empty. If you move even deeper,
there is no house! Even the house has
disappeared.
This is what I am talking about. Right now, you
are full of thoughts and you are bound by the
ego. It is like your house is full. Some day, the
ego will leave you, like your guests have left and
your house is empty.
But if you go still deeper, the house too
disappears. Then there is nothing at all to drop.
Your self has dropped. It is at this point that you
are no more. It is in this emptiness that the
ultimate experience can really happen.
As I said, your house is now full. There is no
space to fit anything in. Only when you become
empty, the experience will have the space to
happen. Only when you have become no more,
the experience of who you really are will
blossom. Only when the false identity fades
away, your identity will become visible.
It is at this point that you cannot have any
connection with your past. It is like you have
completely cut off from what you thought
yourself to be. It is only now that you can really
be yourself.
And this is what enlightenment is: it is getting
rid of your ego, your mind, bit by bit. You go on
losing this ego until there is nothing more to
lose; until you have completely lost yourself. Only
then, you find yourself.
I tell you honestly: you all really don't know how
to live. We are all miserable because of this one
reason. No one is in harmony with each other.
Everyone is always at each other's throat. There
is never a time when you are fully in peace.
Actually, if you look deeply, there is no such
thing as peace. The period of preparation for the
next war is what we call peace!
And this is really the way in which we live. All
the misery in the world is simply because of this
one reason: we all have completely forgotten
how to live with each other.
Just look into your lives: when you are in an
argument with someone, you naturally feel that
the other person doesn't know what he is doing.
You feel that he is wrong, that he should simply
keep quiet and listen to you! If this is what is
going on in your mind, be very clear that the
other guy is thinking the same thing! That is
why there is an argument!
I am not only talking about arguments, I am also
talking about competition, about jealousy. Your
whole life which is a struggle to earn money, to
always succeed, is simply because of this
competing attitude. If you really look into this,
you will understand that the only reason that
you continuously desire, is to show yourself as
better than someone else. Only when your
neighbour gets an air conditioner does the
temperature in your house increase!
I am reminded of a small story:
There was once a Priest and a Rabbi. They
were both next door neighbors.
These two guys would always be competing.
When the Priest got an ice box, the Rabbi had to
get a new refrigerator. When the Rabbi got a
new fan, the Priest had to get a new air
conditioner.
One day, the Priest drove in with a new BMW.
On seeing this, what did the Rabbi do?
He immediately went and bought a new Rolls
Royce!
The next day, the Rabbi walked out of his house
and found that the Priest was baptizing his new
BMW.
The Rabbi just didn't know what to do.
That evening the Rabbi was seen cutting the
exhaust pipe of his new Rolls Royce!
If you understood the joke, it is good.
If you didn't understand, don't miss the laughter!
Simply laugh! What else can be done!
This is the way in which you are living! Whether
you believe it or not, accept it or not, it is the
truth! Your whole life simply exists on this one
basis: to show yourself as better than the other
guy.
Stop all this nonsense! This is not the way to
enjoy your life in totality. This is not the way to
extract the juice of Existence.
Life is nothing but a celebration and you are
here to live it.
You are here to enjoy.
You are here to sing with the birds.
Just do it! Grasp the spirit and flow with the
river of life!
Nothing more is needed.
Thank you.
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