Broken

Many thanks to Propeller Consulting, LLC. I did receive a sample of the product in exchange for this review and post. All opinions are 100% my own.

Sharing my story of brokenness is hard. Its hard because when I think back, old feelings start to comeback and it’s not always a joyful place I like to talk about, but because its a story of how I came to know the Lord and experienced His goodness, its a testimony of brokeness I don’t mind sharing multiple times.

Broken

I didn’t grow up going to church. I knew there was a God but didn’t know who was real. I met my husband while I was in college, living on my own and working 2 jobs… I felt like I was living the lifestyle. When I met my husband, he was a young Marine, living in the barracks, living his own life. A year later after travel on the grey hound bus to spend time with him, I soon found out I was pregnant and I felt like my life was over.

Now that I’m pregnant I had to stop going to school, stop working and live with my mom, in Raleigh-Durham area, NC, until the babies we’re born and It was a month later I would find out I was having twins. During this time, I feel into a great depression (without realizing it), I would just be home. At the time, I didn’t know the relationship of my husband and I, he went on a 6 month deployment when I found out I was pregnant and it was hard not being able to speak to him as much as I wanted to. We would email back and forth.

Soon, the babies we’re born and this began a new Journey of being a new mom… I had no clue what I was doing. While I had on the job training of being a mother, I would watch different different preachers such as Joyce Meyer, TDJakes, Joel Osteen and so on. I was being woed by God, I was intrigued by the stories some of these pastor would share and would want to experience that for myself.

The time came, when my husband came back from Deployment and we decided that we would live together and work things out. So when he came back from deployment, the twins and I flew to South Carolina to start my Journey as a new wife, mom and everything in between. I thought we would have a nice life together (for some reason) but It didn’t happen that way. We both had a rude awakening of learning each others, likes and dislikes. I came into the marriage with no skills as a mom or a wife and didn’t know what I was getting into, as a military spouse. I was in a new a new area, a new home, starting a life. I noticed he was working long hours, deploying every 5 minutes and I felt alone most of time.

There was a breaking point in our marriage and felt like we should start going to church together. We went to a great church where they started to love on us and this is where I experienced God. I felt like it was time for me to get to know the God of the bible and see how real He is. When I decided to accept God into my heart and life I remember telling God that I want to know that He’s real, that I was trusting Him. I believe since I said those words, God hasn’t stop showing me and is with me every step of the way in my life.

About the Album

During my time of brokness I would write down, what I was feeling in a Journal. The hurt, pain and loneliness I was feeling with two children, I didn’t know how to take care of. Matt Redman’s new song, Gracefully Broken hits home, because I know the feeling too well. Matt Redman teamed up with several of his worship-artist friends for this album, first releasing the track “Gracefully Broken (feat. Tasha Cobbs Leonard).” Tasha Cobbs Leonard also released her own version of this song on the same day! The album also features Kierra Sheard, Guvna B, Madison Cunningham, and Kim Walker-Smith.

The lyrics says:

“Here I am, God

Arms wide open

Pouring out my life

Gracefully broken

My heart stands in awe of Your name

Your mighty love stands strong to the end

You will fulfill Your purpose for me

You won’t forsake me, You will be with me”

Since that day, I know these lyrics to be true. I learned how much I LOVE being a mother and can now encourage other moms and share with others God’s goodness. My husband and I are in a better place then we we’re back then and been married for over 11 years now and still going strong.

Interested in getting a CD, here is the link for more information:

Buy Link: http://capcmg.me/GlorySong?IQid=flyby

Here is more on the Matt Redman’s song story of Gracefully Broken:

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