Are you often naive or gullible?

I can be manipulated, if that’s what you mean. And when I love, I love blindly. I can be over-trusting. But it will strangely be on my terms. Either because I’ll be wilffully immersing myself in the illusion or because I’ll have figured it out but still not want to believe it? Aka I’m naive when my heart’s in it. When I’m vulnerable and open. When I want to postpone absolution in cognitive processes and kind of…attempt to freeze time, give the benefit of the doubt, allow things to flow etc.

I’m very self-destructive as far as that is concerned. Otherwise I’m just plain suspicious and slightly paranoid and overreacting. I’m a natural at overreacting, it’s just completely my nature. Both in the good and the bad. I can also act naive (pretty effortlessly) simply to allow the other person to lay their cards as “freely” as possible on the table. But I’m too perceptive // attentive for my own good, really, & I cannot escape awareness. Awareness comes. It might delay, I might be blind-sided in the process or blind-side someone else, but awareness comes. It might be painful but I’d never sacrifice it simply to indulge in the myth.