The Massacre Introjection

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The Massacre Introjection

It’s hard to revision your decision
when the backstab
feels like a jagged dagger
and feels good

intent
intentionality meaningful meaningless
nothing but regression
regret not yet infinite regress

the spine is sore from too much strain
as if it’s somehow possible
to hold up the pain

reminisce rethink reshape
word dagger nothing not quite quiet thought
jagged juxtapose and pointless dagger point

well no wonder the ice heart burns
burns while it yearns
burns as hot as cold phoenix fire blood
release the flood

I become nothing (less)

do you not understand
of course it’s not (understand)
experiential differential
valid logic coldly calculate
so real surreal bent

I told the truth
and faked in it
remove me from natural selection
me from survival
ruin

is it wrong to admit
you fell me

the ice heart is just
a nice cruel art

I backstab sincerity
for clarity

epidemic catastrophe
you are just as

but of course that is
that is
of course that is the illusion

so I’m going to Hell then
scare myself awry with idolatry
blood-stained ideology

dangerous idea-ology
the study of thought undercut neurobiology
as if well it is well it is

well it is

as if you could really know
danger
spine snap

I shut the fuck up
spine tap
I shut the hell up
spine break brain lesion deathly cognition

agitation

fuck dichotomous
life and death
butchered right and wrong
logocentric

let me dangerous ideology
mental technology
let me become a backstabbed murder
let me drip with sweet suicidal sin
succumb to deep pain within

I murder myself in Hell
I am torment

I deserve suicide

letting out my mind
will secure the danger.