Finding myself in Ubud
For months now, perhaps even years I've lost myself trying to be the perfect daughter, the best friend, the perfect girl that guys wants. And you know what I got? A permanent feeling of failure.A list of fake friends that want to just use me for their own benefits. And a broken heart. Don't get me wrong, I have amazing friends. Just not as many as I thought. I can count the people who care about me for me on my fingers. And I am tired of fake people and being used. I'm tired of not being heard. As I pack for my next adventure, I vow to find myself. I will be my best self, and until I find her, I vow to never allow someone to simple to fall in love with the idea of me. That is falling in lust and I admit I am guilty of this. But that isn't what I want. I will find my self and when I love my self I will be ready to put myself out there. Note: when getting dropped off at the airport, tell your lift the correct gate. Question: why does a six hour flight to Bali feel like a whole day? I read a whole book and listened to 100+ songs on my ipod and that only took up part of the flight. Its now midnight in Bali time as I crawl into our bed at the Y Resort in Ubud. I used my little Malaysian to thank the driver. The plan was to get up at six in the morning to begin the adventure early but this gypsy needs her beauty sleep so the alarm is set for 8am. Goodnight. 
The best way to start the morning is pulling back the curtains to a view. Followed by some fresh fruit and local cuisine for breakfast. On todays menu: fried rice. The day began at the Plantation. Its a coffee plantation most famous for its Luwak coffee. Its this cat possum looking animal that eats the coffee beans and digest it and from that they have this process if making coffee. Its meant to make the coffee taste delicious. I didn't have it this time but I didnt say no to the free tasting tray of other coffees and teas they make at this place. From chocolate coffee to rosela tea to white hot chocolate. Delicious. 
We continued on to the Tegalalang rice fields, it is one of the most popular places to visit in Ubud as it gives a beautiful scenic outlook of the ricefields. We walked through the whole field and even got slightly lost in the forest behind it where we recited, "Lions and tigers and bears, oh my!" But being in Bali we corrected it slightly, to "Luwak, Moneys and Bears! Oh my!" 
Next stop. Hindu temples.They were very busy because we came on a new moon and according to Hindu beliefs the most powerful time to pray to the Gods is during a full moon. Both temples we went to had the statues of the Hindu trinity. Creator. Preserver and Destroyer.Tirta Empul, meaning: Holy Water Springs. The first temple we went to, it has a stone pool called the purification bath when you stand with your hands pressed together and bow under the flowing water. Most temples in Bali require you to wear a sarong but this one also demands women on their flow must not enter and must also tie their hair up. The second temple was Taman Nusa which is technically a culture park of Bali's different religious cultures as well as Indonesia's heritage. You'll also notice most statues of the Gods will have black and white sarongs. Black symbolises bad, white represents good. It is balance and shows that nobody is perfect. 
We asked our driver what else he recommended that was in the area and he took us to this place called, The Hidden Canyons. It is a river with a stone wall that had created a master piece of three canyons. A two hour walk, swim (or just walking waist deep) and vertical rock climbing adventure which I mastered in a skirt and with no shoes. Yes I did fall over once and land in a water fall but that is not the point. It is a good story to laugh at. If you do come to Bali. I highly recommend it, I did joke that I thought I was going to die a few times but super fun, a great adventure. 
We got dropped off at the Ubud markets to look around. I totally forgot about the wolf calls. Guys, this doesn't work ever! Please note that. There wasn't really anything that captured our attention in the markets so we walked back to the hotel, using only the map, go us. We found this little vegetarian restaurant on the way made of bamboo, they had us take off our shoes as we entered then we climbed up the stairs to sit on the top floor that looked out into the street. The tables were close to the ground and our chairs were bean bags. Great way to end the day. Now for an early night as the alarm is going off at 2am.
I awoke to sirens going off in my room, or that is what it sounded like. It was just Sarah's alarm at 2am! Kill me now. Why did I agree to hike a volcano? As we began hiking, I realised I was going to die. What was I thinking when I put 'Wild' on my bucket list?! I mean I get it, nature gives you perspective, and start to a new life and a chance to get over someone you love and find yourself... I think that is what the book is about. But my new life would be death cause holy crap this is steep! And you think that wouldn't surprise me since its a volcano but apparently I didn't realise how steep it would be. Two and a half hours later I reach the top. Thank god. And as I watch the sunset rise I realised, I have no idea what I want to do with my life, no idea who I am and no idea how I'm going to survive my mental health issues but I realised my soul always knows what it needs. And who it needs, so I will always have hope. Because if I can't trust my soul, I have nothing to believe in. 
Now getting down the volcano is actually the harder part, and I slipped and fell on my butt, again. Twice in two days!! My butt hurts now... so do my legs! Holy crap man! But its a once in a life time experience. "People can live a hundred years without really living a minute." - Gilmore GirlsIt is only 9am and I'm already exhausted but we must not end the day here. We get some breakfast than continue on to Tibumena waterfall and enjoy the late morning sun with a swim under the waterfall. Though the hundred steps to get to it tested my legs after the hike. We did have some other plans for this evening but we are only human and are exhausted and sleep deprived so we are going to finish our day in Ubud by lazying in the pool, some yoga to stretch our exhausted limbs then find a Hawker Centre for dinner. Tomorow we island hop! 
The best way to start the morning is pulling back the curtains to a view. Followed by some fresh fruit and local cuisine for breakfast. On todays menu: fried rice. The day began at the Plantation. Its a coffee plantation most famous for its Luwak coffee. Its this cat possum looking animal that eats the coffee beans and digest it and from that they have this process if making coffee. Its meant to make the coffee taste delicious. I didn't have it this time but I didnt say no to the free tasting tray of other coffees and teas they make at this place. From chocolate coffee to rosela tea to white hot chocolate. Delicious. We continued on to the Tegalalang rice fields, it is one of the most popular places to visit in Ubud as it gives a beautiful scenic outlook of the ricefields. We walked through the whole field and even got slightly lost in the forest behind it where we recited, "Lions and tigers and bears, oh my!" But being in Bali we corrected it slightly, to "Luwak, Moneys and Bears! Oh my!" Next stop. Hindu temples.They were very busy because we came on a new moon and according to Hindu beliefs the most powerful time to pray to the Gods is during a full moon. Both temples we went to had the statues of the Hindu trinity. Creator. Preserver and Destroyer.Tirta Empul, meaning: Holy Water Springs. The first temple we went to, it has a stone pool called the purification bath when you stand with your hands pressed together and bow under the flowing water. Most temples in Bali require you to wear a sarong but this one also demands women on their flow must not enter and must also tie their hair up. The second temple was Taman Nusa which is technically a culture park of Bali's different religious cultures as well as Indonesia's heritage. You'll also notice most statues of the Gods will have black and white sarongs. Black symbolises bad, white represents good. It is balance and shows that nobody is perfect. We asked our driver what else he recommended that was in the area and he took us to this place called, The Hidden Canyons. It is a river with a stone wall that had created a master piece of three canyons. A two hour walk, swim (or just walking waist deep) and vertical rock climbing adventure which I mastered in a skirt and with no shoes. Yes I did fall over once and land in a water fall but that is not the point. It is a good story to laugh at. If you do come to Bali. I highly recommend it, I did joke that I thought I was going to die a few times but super fun, a great adventure. We got dropped off at the Ubud markets to look around. I totally forgot about the wolf calls. Guys, this doesn't work ever! Please note that. There wasn't really anything that captured our attention in the markets so we walked back to the hotel, using only the map, go us. We found this little vegetarian restaurant on the way made of bamboo, they had us take off our shoes as we entered then we climbed up the stairs to sit on the top floor that looked out into the street. The tables were close to the ground and our chairs were bean bags. Great way to end the day. Now for an early night as the alarm is going off at 2am.I awoke to sirens going off in my room, or that is what it sounded like. It was just Sarah's alarm at 2am! Kill me now. Why did I agree to hike a volcano? As we began hiking, I realised I was going to die. What was I thinking when I put 'Wild' on my bucket list?! I mean I get it, nature gives you perspective, and start to a new life and a chance to get over someone you love and find yourself... I think that is what the book is about. But my new life would be death cause holy crap this is steep! And you think that wouldn't surprise me since its a volcano but apparently I didn't realise how steep it would be. Two and a half hours later I reach the top. Thank god. And as I watch the sunset rise I realised, I have no idea what I want to do with my life, no idea who I am and no idea how I'm going to survive my mental health issues but I realised my soul always knows what it needs. And who it needs, so I will always have hope. Because if I can't trust my soul, I have nothing to believe in. Now getting down the volcano is actually the harder part, and I slipped and fell on my butt, again. Twice in two days!! My butt hurts now... so do my legs! Holy crap man! But its a once in a life time experience. "People can live a hundred years without really living a minute." - Gilmore GirlsIt is only 9am and I'm already exhausted but we must not end the day here. We get some breakfast than continue on to Tibumena waterfall and enjoy the late morning sun with a swim under the waterfall. Though the hundred steps to get to it tested my legs after the hike. We did have some other plans for this evening but we are only human and are exhausted and sleep deprived so we are going to finish our day in Ubud by lazying in the pool, some yoga to stretch our exhausted limbs then find a Hawker Centre for dinner. Tomorow we island hop!
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