Why I fail at LJ ^^;

Yes . . . I keep getting caught up in different things, and focusing on them, to the detriment of other stuff. I really need to learn to manage my time better. I have been writing as well, but still need to get off my lazy ass and do more of it. :p I tried writing a short story for Dreamspinner's wedding anthology that's coming up, but it just wasn't coming together properly. I couldn't even figure out one of the character's names for goodness sake! So unfortunately wasn't able to finish it in time for the deadline. I will get it finished at some point though and probably try submit it to Dreamspinner as a short story/novella. I still have other stories for other anthologies that I want to submit to to do I just need to get my brain in gear and get them done.

I've also been revisiting a story I did for a competition at MLRPress, it didn't win anything but I still like the story and would like to get it published sometime. I just can't help the feeling that there's something . . . wrong with it though. The competition was for their Partners in Crime line and the theme was art and murder so it has a kind of "police procedural" feel to it, along the lines of the CSIs or Law and Order, but with gay men. ;) What I'm not sure of is if it all fits together, if the person who's guilty is too obvious, if there's plot holes to drive a truck through, if everything sounds right. I think I'm too close to the story though, I need someone to read it with fresh eyes and seriously pick it to pieces, tell me exactly what they think is wrong with it and what works (if anything). And the harsher the better. It couldn't be any worse than how I am with myself, even if it's telling me to just forget it or re-write it from the ground up (I'm almost considering doing that anyway). Of course there's other things I should be working on, but yeah, after months my brain has decided to jump onto this again. I don't want to start working on it too much though without some other sort of feedback/criticism. *Sigh*