Try Try Try

Well, I got a job. And it's kind of perfect, so I am going to do everything in my power to make it permanent. Right now, it is just seasonal, but since it is a work from home opportunity and I can work four ten hour shifts a week, I really want to make it permanent. Especially since it could travel with me when I transfer to a four-year university. And it's with Amazon, and Amazon just so happens to be headquartered in Seattle. So, these are all good things. 
The pay isn't the best rate I've ever gotten, but for where I am right now, it's pretty good and it will allow me to start moving forward again. Along with seeing a psychiatrist again, I am starting to feel like the pieces are snapping back into place regarding who I am and what I can become. That feels good.
I entered The Skeleton Friend into a novel writing contest. According to the rules, it could be already self-published, so I went ahead and put it out there. Not entirely sure how the winners are picked. They were looking specifically for a series of novels, which TSF is the first of. We'll see what happens, but I don't think it hurts to put it out there. 
I am having serious trouble sleeping at night. Mostly falling asleep. My anxiety is crazy high. I am desperate for something to give and hopefully, this is the thing that starts to ease some of my worry. I don't know. Bedtime isn't for a while, so in the meantime, I guess I'll reheat this coffee and try not to drum my fingers broken or bite my nail beds bloody.
All I can do is try.