Trying, one day at a time…

So, today I’ve been swinging my feet and biting the inside of my mouth and waiting…

Waiting for the day that I can finally make a decent headway with my business idea! Owning my own hotel.

I’ve been doing a bit more deliberating lately about it. I think it was the second to last cold and windy day trudging through the outside weather trying to get outside because I’m isolated in this village that made me realise that spending anymore time in the United Kingdom is probably not in my best interest.

If you don’t know already, I have a keen interest in Forensics, Science, Psychology, etc, but I also have this huge dream to one day own my own hotel. And when I say dream, I mean – I literally dream about it!

And, if you don’t know already, I did try to purse that dream by contacting a few companies that help people like me set up my own business (especially social enterprises) and I ran into a bit of a brick wall. The fact I live in such an isolated village with very limited public transport (I sold my car as I couldn’t afford to keep it) means getting to meet these people and go to events was, to say the least, difficult. So, I decided to wait until I at least moved to the city.

BUT – after going back and forth from the Job Centre and getting Universal Credit, I have realised that not only is it difficult for me to find work (even though I’ve started searching in Edinburgh as there is a posibility to get there in the week!) I’m panicking about working full time, renting a house (the dreaded housework!), writing a book (or two, or three…!) AND university work! So, I’m worried about that now too!

I then said to myself, that I would wait until I’ve finished my Degree – but then I thought, I want to do that Master’s Degree at Cranfield University, so that another year of studying on top of this last year of studying, and then what? I at first wanted to find work in that field, big companies head hunt at Cranfield see, so in my head I was thinking about getting an awesome job in London working for an Intelligence company (like the National Crime Agency), but is that what I REALLY want, or is that just because it looks cool?

Anyway! Long story short, after that last straw walking in the cold wind (in June I might add), that I realised it’s pointless going to Cranfield and I’m not happy here in the UK (especially after today with results in from the General Election, but I won’t go into politics!) I realised that I should just focus on my health and happiness.

So! I have decided to focus on starting up that business! Yes, I might not be able to start it up right now as I am still going to be finishing my degree (I’ve got this far already!) I don’t have any business knowledge! I don’t have the funds! I live in the middle of no-where. But I’m going to chase my dream.

And I’m starting by a small e-commerce business. Selling my prints/photography to begin with, and working my way from there – although I am going to have to think it through properly. Selling my prints is just a beginning – and I don’t expect to sell many. I tried it before and I think I sold about 1 or 2! But, it’s a start! Also, going to be looking into broadening my understanding on business – so, lots of research in the next few months while I’m on summer holidays!