Fatal

You were in love with a boy 

His love was like the beginning and the end of everything 

He bled sunshine and you saw him as the brightest thing in the room 

He made your heart stink into your stomach everytime he said goodbye 

He was golden although you faded into amber;

You were nothing compared to him 

And here’s the best part 

You loved him more than your life.

You jumped into the wells of his eyes as though they were beds of roses

Oh, little did you know 

That there were monsters swimming just below the surface 

That the dustiest attics of his minds were filled with ghosts 

He was drowning in the lake of his dark miseries; 

He was pulling himself apart at the seams 

Nevertheless

With trembling fingers, you tried to sew him back 

You offered your shaking hand to pull him back up to the surface 

You did everything just so he could have hid first breath after the long dive 

Darling, how didn’t you realise?

He never wanted to be saved 

And even less, never by your hand 

But here’s the worst-

You still loved him so much more than your own life.