Waiting on Editorial Comment

I keep waiting for that day when I'll write with confidence, rather than this gremlin on my shoulder that pours forth a steady stream of, "Are you sure your editor is going to go for that?" ... "Isn't that a bit passe?" ... "Cliche alert!" ... "Didn't another author use that same hero's name ten years ago?" ... "Do you really think there's enough story here for the word count?" ... "That's a bit risky, are you sure you want to write that?" ... and on and on and on.
I've spoken to too many authors who seem to share my affliction for me to think it's unique.  And yet we keep writing and looking for the best way to deal with the gremlin - the doubt devils that plague us.  I practice ignoring them, telling myself I have to write the story as it comes to me, not try to fit someone else's idea of a good romantic adventure.
Right now, I'm waiting on editorial feedback from Berkley on my latest Children of the Moon novel and it makes it that much harder to write the other two books I'm working on with freedom.  I seem to doubt myself even more when I'm waiting to find out if I've written dreck in someone else's eyes.  And the editors are busy, their deadlines worse than any author's, so I don't expect to hear back immediately.
But waiting is a killer of creativity, so I try to forget I have a book out there awaiting verdict and soldiering on.  The good news is that I'm getting *a lot* of writing done despite holidays, family visits and more than a week's worth of cluster migraines.  "Back in the Sheikh's Bed" is shaping up nicely and I'm feeling rather confident (for the moment).  I'm taking more risks with "Heat Seeker" that readers are either going to love...or not so much, but I'm hoping love because well...I do.
That's the kicker, no matter how the gremlin tries to worry me, I have to write for myself - for the stories burning in *my* heart to be written.  So, as always, despite my little shoulder gremlin, I am writing 100% from my heart and hoping my editors and readers can sense that when they get to see the finished stories.
It's your turn:  What is one area of your life you tend to doubt yourself in and how do you handle that doubt?
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Published on September 06, 2011 13:43
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