Bottom
My confidence was at rock bottom. I lost my appetite and felt like throwing up every morning the past month. I would stare at my food and force myself to eat. I drastically lost weight. My productivity was at an overdrive but inside, I was breaking down. But I refused to relate to my internal state and did what I love. Some days I would tear for no reason at all and be consumed by sadness before I hit the dance floor to regain my happiness and freedom once more.
After a week long vacation in Taiwan, I regained my self esteem, appetite and joy for life. I had a revelation while looking at the sea that my life is beautiful the way it is. I will continue to live a beautiful life and treasure my family and friends – expanding to the community and the world through my creations. The taste of happiness is from within and it’s about perspective – I can make light of the past and evolve to the next frontier. My parents and grandparents words of wisdom resonates through my actions. The uncertain future is that I will never continue my family’s lineage but that’s okay, my books will be immortalized on virtual space forever.
