A Beautiful Day!

Continuing to Move Forward Boldly

This day is outstanding! Every day has been a beautiful and magical gift.

This is my smile this morning. Pardon the bed head and no make up. LOL

Everyday when I wake up, before my feet hit the floor, before I open my eyes I say the words, ���Today, I am going to live.���

For awhile I would say it even though I didn’t believe it. I knew that the day was going to be hard and full of pain, sorrow, disappointment and strife. But I still tried. Until I didn’t, and I gave up. I surrendered to the undertow of addiction.

I want to be clear for my new folks that aren’t aware of what’s been happening in my life. I’m not the addict. My soon-to-be-exhusband is.

Today when I began to stir in bed, I felt a sense of peace. I’ve had that every morning for about six months now. I didn’t have to force it. I didn’t have to consciously say, ���Today, I’m going to live.��� It just happened.

Finally getting out from underneath the heavy blanket of someone else’s addiction is so freeing. My house is filled with a sense of peace. When friends come to visit they notice the sense of happiness and peace in my house is palpable.

So yeah, today and everyday, I’m going to live. I’m going to enjoy every second of my life. I work hard, I take care of my small children without benefit of much financial help from their father. But I’m LIVING. I’m doing it, I’m making it happen.

I’m going to be starting a new blog series soon. It’ll be on my new website, which I haven’t built yet. It will be called Moving Forward Boldly. If you are or have been the victim of an addict you’ll want to check it out. Because no matter how bad things are, there is always hope.

I want to spread that word. I want people to see that you can get out from underneath that pain. I want people to know that there is nothing wrong with stopping the madness of an addiction and mental illness that isn’t your own.

I used to feel guilty for abandoning my addict. Not anymore. It’s not my cross to bare and I’m not carrying it anymore. I’m still suffering from the effects of his disasters financially. But it’s getting better everyday. Without him constantly dragging me down, I can breathe and smile and live and feel joy!

I want everyone to know they can feel joy again!

The point is, if you’re living with someone in your life that does not make you feel happy, don’t live in their misery and illness. You have a life to live. I could go on about all the bullshit that people spew about standing by your man, but when he’s cut the legs out from under you, what’s left?

When I get Moving Forward Boldly up and running, I want it to be safe place for the victims of addicts. I want you all to know that it’s okay to live for yourself. How can you be an effective mother, friend, daughter…anything when you have no spirit to move forward? No guilt, no bullshit, just the truth of how to LIVE!

My life, my children, my home are all happy and peaceful again.