Results of the Great Weigh In

If you’ve been following my blog at all this year, you might have seen me mention the 14-week Slambam fitness challenge I took on back in February.

It’s a contest that’s not just a weight loss challenge. You’re judged on the percent of weight lost and total body transformation.

I lost 19.8 pounds and several inches. Most people would say I did well.

In fact, all the people in the group, my instructor, my friends all said I did a fantastic job and were proud of me and my motivation and ability to stick to it.

But for me…I felt like a failure.

It’s the same almost 20 lbs I’ve lost a million times in the last 25 years, and the same 20 lbs I lost last year before my wedding. Then promptly gained it back in the 6 months before Slambam started.

I believe most women have a love/hate relationship with the scale even though we all know it’s only a part of the big picture. It’s much more important to be healthy. Not a size 4.

Blah, blah, blah…..

I don’t care how much my objective, rational mind tells me that it’s more important to be healthy then what the scale says my emotions are tied to that freaking scale.

I go up .2, and I feel fat all day which then inspires negativity in my brain, the feeling that why should I bother, I will always be fat, and on and on and on. I feel this way even though right now I know I am the fittest I’ve even been. I’m stronger, I have more endurance, and I feel awesome (physically).

But the head trash, the negative thoughts that spin mourned and around in my head is a totally different story.

How can I be excited about something I accomplished when I’ve had the same accomplishment SO MANY TIMES!!!
How can I be a role model for my daughter when I keep making the same mistake over and over?
How can I push through the fear that once again I will gain this weight back and be fat and ready for next years Slambam?

The answer is simple.

How can I not?

I have a young daughter and step-daughter. I have friends who have young daughters. At 10, 11, and 13 years of age I hear them talk about being called fat at school, feeling fat, asking their moms and me if they are fat. It breaks my heart to hear this come out of their mouths.

I don’t like this negative self-talk in myself or my friends and I certainly don’t wish for our beautiful daughters to think and feel this way.

I need to do my part in instilling in my daughter and the young women around me to be proud of who they are and what they look like.

I MUST celebrate victories to show my daughter that all achievements are to be proud of.
I MUST be a role model and realize that showing her it’s just as important to understand no one is perfect and giving up on any goal isn’t an option. Regardless of the setbacks.
I MUST not worry about the future and instead take each day as a challenge to do what’s right. What I know I need to do for myself, my family, and my health.

We all need to love ourselves as we are because we ARE FABULOUS regardless of our size or how we look in a bikini.

Now go look in the mirror and tell yourself that 10 times. That’s what I’m going to do!

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