fears

I have five more chapters of my rewrite then I'll be starting edits.

I'm excited but afraid. 

As an avid Goodreads user seeing all the amazing books, and reading them, makes me feel like why should I even bother?  
My book sucks, it has no hype, and I can't write. 
I don't even have the money yet for an editor or to get a new cover made.  These thoughts keep hammering at my mind and I want to give up so bad.  I know it's my anxiety.  Thoughts like these is why it's taken me so long to write this book in the first place.  I keep having too remind myself why this story needs to be told.  I enjoy writing and I want to share my ideas with an audience.  I'm not special and that's okay.  Back to writing.