A better me...

I took a long break. A really long break.

​I think the last book I wrote with any passion in it was Bucked Off For Love and that was last summer. I did somehow manage to write Love’s Secret in the fall of 2016 for a boxed set it was in for about 3 months. That story lacked my passion as a writer. I’ve sense gotten the story back and haven’t rereleased yet. It needs some serious TLC.

​Life happened and tons of changes came my way. First I began working part time 3 days a week. And that was a huge change for me, being at home for 12 years. I had a hard time juggling things. As well, some things were going on in my personal life that zapped any creativity.  During the fall, I spent a lot of time working on me as a person. Who I was and what made me happy. I’d forgotten. I thought writing book after book made me happy, but then I found myself getting on Facebook all the time and getting jealous of everyone else’s success’s. But you know what? I was doing all right for myself. I realize that now as I’ve left my writing life go.

​In January, I decided in my quest of still trying to find me again, that being out of the house all the time was good for me. I was going crazy because a part of me wanted to write again, but I couldn’t form more than a few paragraphs. Several started and stopped work in progress’s. I was feeling like a failure in my author life. I kept telling myself, next month I’ll do more promo. Or next month I’m going to write. Something fresh. But then I never did those goals and that made me more frustrated.

Also in January, I started to work full time. I always wanted to be a special ed teacher. I’d started schooling for it before having my son. So I got hired on as a paraprofessional. Even thinking about writing was out the door because I work hard all day with no breaks. When I get him, I usually do a little cleaning then I’m on the couch and snoozing on the couch by 8:30.

Over the last few months, not worrying about if I have another book to release to stay in readers eyes, self-imposed deadlines to stress over, edits, and so on. I’ve healed. I feel ready to write again. If only I had the time. But guess what? That doesn’t stress me either. From fall 2016- spring 2017, I’ve been working on me. I’m content with where I am in life.

I still have stories to tell and won’t be walking away. But the break, once I finally stopped beating myself up and allowed myself to just walk away for a bit, was worth it. 2017 may be a year with just re-releases on books I get rights back to. Or maybe I’ll actually finish one of my work in progresses. Either way, as a person, I’ve grown and found more happiness in myself.

To any of my readers still lingering around, thank you! Your support means so much to me.
 
A list of books to be rereleased:
Amber’s Muse
It Must Be Fate
Love’s Secret
 
A book I started and hoping to finish is Best Man .