Thought Capture

I had a rollercoaster day of emotions yesterday. So much so I decided to take a day off from life today. Well, not life; we can’t truly take those days off, but time away from “productivity ” and planning and work of any kind.

I got  out of bed when I felt like it. I asked my boyfriend to sleep over Because  I wanted a distraction from myself. I did one errand and chilled and ate and laughed.

But a nail got stuck in the car tyre so we had to sort that out and spend money and take time out of our day. I’m proud of myself though. I usually would have blamed myself for the tyre. Blamed my bad luck and cried, saying “of course I can’t just have a good day.” Instead I breathed deep and said “it’s just a tyre, we’re fixing it, that’s life and at least I’m out the house and distracted.”

Great, right?

And I think I’m finally focusing. Finally deciding what’s best for me at this stage. I need to focus on self development before I can truly save the world. I’m not strong enough, confident enough, or intelligent enough to do it right just yet.

So I’m going to work on me.