Depression & Suicidal Thoughts

I’ve been dealing with depression a lot lately, mostly due to unresolved childhood trauma I believe. Today I finally felt at least well enough to make a video talking about some of the things I am going through and wanted to share that in case it might help anyone else struggling. I am also going to share the written version of the poem I read in the video here:

Suicidal Ideations

Written by: Maranda Russell

If I only had a dollar

for every time

I have looked down

from a great height,

shook a full bottle of pills,

held my breath under water,

or inhaled exhaust fumes

while thinking

I could actually do it,

I could end it all –

I would have more

than enough

to pay for all the

therapy sessions

I obviously need.