What is it really like to work when you have active bipolar disorder, psychosis and anxiety?

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I just sent out a newsletter. Here is what I experienced the entire time I was working:

1. Shortness of breath.

2. Felt like my heart was in my throat- literally- like a lump.

3. Dizziness

4. Worry

5. Guilt

6. Dread

7. Anger that I have to go through this CRAP

8. Lack of faith in what I was writing.

9. A great desire to simply quit what I was doing.

10. Zero belief I would reach my goal.

I have lived with this my entire life. It is my brain. I have a lot of mental health symptoms that simply show up when I work.

The secret is learning to work THROUGH them.

I sent that darn newsletter and it is beautiful. Who cares that I felt like I was dying while working on the project. I will keep going.

Julie

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