I’m blindly bumbling along!

I keep coming back to the fact that advertising/publicising myself is not my best skill. Yeah, sure I can talk the talk when the opportunity arises, but I don’t seem to have the right connections or in-roads to get myself out there. I really do feel I am letting the stories/books down in that sense and it really does frustrate me.

This is where the duality of my life comes into conflict. I juggle my work and home life with very distinct separations of personality traits. As for the author work, that rests squarely in the “home” category, and I often suffer that guilty feeling when I spend my free time pouring into the laptop churning through reams and reams of ideas for books and stories. To that end, I try to let my work on extra stuff beyond the writing and editing impact as little as possible on family time. As you’ve probably noticed, I am very focused on family time!

I flit between different avenues of advertising, some free, some low-end paid. I’ve toyed with Facebook Post Boosts – perfect for getting people to look at a post but pants for sales or going beyond the post. I’ve tried a Facebook Ad or two, again not a great result. I’ve just submitted a Goodreads Ad so will see how that goes.

Again I am just playing at it. I may be deluded, and my writing may be utter poo, but the feedback I have had is good. To that end, I have lots of faith that the story, especially The Magdon Series, has some legs. I just seem incapable of actually attaching the legs and getting them to run. I have made some approaches to PR agencies, but relative to cost is the fact a lot of them brush me off with a half-ass reply which doesn’t instil me with any confidence in what they do.

I’m all for trying to show my creative side, but in reality, I have to look at it all and ask who cares? Who actually invests in the time I pour into the pages, the posts, the pictures and the attempts to make waves in the big world?

It doesn’t matter really. I know I’m not some amazingly famous person to turn to in times of need for escape from reality. I’m one in hundreds/thousands of others, all equally proud of their creations and equally as determined to get out there.

That said though it won’t stop me.

If just two people read a blog post so be it. If a dozen people read the books, then that’s a dozen people who have invested in my world. I’ve stolen a few hours of their time, and hopefully they’ve enjoyed what I’ve given them in return.

But for now I will continue to fill my time in a dreamy land of belief in myself. I can wander the streets with excuses of “it’s for the book” and take random pictures to better help me visualise where I am going with my adventures. You never know, one day, it may all be worth this effort and the constant roller coaster of self-doubt.

Hell, it would be interesting to see who actually reads these posts and those who just click on it out of some sense of “feeling they have to”.

Again, what does it matter I’m out there, my stories are out there and perhaps one day they will grow legs enough and even wings to fly!

Until then the journey along the way is fun enough.

 

[image error]Time waits for no man – grasp the opportunity and run with it.