isitandwonder:wssh-watson:I’ve only heard some things, but the things I’ve heard are enough for...

isitandwonder:

wssh-watson:

I’ve only heard some things, but the things I’ve heard are enough for me, and I’m done.

I made several posts about “I’m believing, that’s my resistance,” and “I think their actions are justified if it’s to make the uncomfortable heterosexual audience okay with it,” but you know what? I’m a little older than many younger people here and I have huge issues with my mental health and I know how I am suffering right now so I don’t want to know how a lot of the younger ones are holding up… and you know what? I’m fucking done defending them. I’m sick of it. Mark Gatiss, a man belonging to a minority, with a long history of working for LGB rights and representing LGB people in his works–treating his fans like this? I’m SICK.

Like. Maybe we’ll get a kiss on Sunday. I don’t know. But they can take their ambiguous or their adl0ck and stuff it up their behinds. I am DONE. Don’t you dare campaign for LGBT rights and call yourself proud if you pull this shit off and hurt so many young queer people who NEED this, which you very well know!

We shouldn’t have to beg for representation. I’m crying about the fact that we have to do. I’m bisexual, pretty closeted, and the LGBT community is the only one I’ve ever felt comfortable in. Like a home. I’m sick of having to beg for people to see and acknowledge and respect that home and community. It should be NATURAL, but it isn’t, and I’m sitting here choking up because of the pain that comes with it. I feel sick, and angry, and disgusted, and horribly played.

And this is the one time in my life I had firmly believed I wouldn’t have to tell myself, “You shouldn’t have…”

You shouldn’t have believed. Shouldn’t have hoped.

I’ll wait for Sunday and see for myself. We’ll know for sure then, because well, there are also trolls around and you never know.

Stay safe. Stay you. You’re valid, you’re good, you don’t need cis white men to lord their creations over you with which they determine your perception and mental health and life.

Guess what? If we didn’t get Johnlock then it’s because they fucked up. Johnlock is there, Johnlock is true, and Johnlock will still be there even if TFP is a mess up.

Yes, I am bitter. I am hurt. This isn’t just a TV show. If it reaches such vast dimensions and if you use such a character and if you use such persistent queer coding, <i>do not tell me I don’t exist at the end of it and do not dare tell me it’s my own fault for reading into</i>.

If TFP is a mess up–which I understand as ambiguous or epic friendship–then we’ll make it better. Okay? We’ll make it better. We’ll write our own. We <i>have</i> been writing our own, and it is better than the show; just go have a look at @ivyblossom ’s fics, that’s all you need to know.

We’ll do better and we’ll stay strong and proud and fuck cis white men.

We are better than this. Johnlock is better than this bullshit.

Prepare yourself, folks. Sunday might be really bad. Or just ambiguous - which is also really bad. 

I’ve been shipping Johnlock for 35 years. Not an epic friendship, but hands-on romance. Not just smouldering looks but kisses, sex, bodily fluids - real stuff.

I can ship it for 35 years more, but I really hoped I didn’t have to with this adaption.

I know it’s not a compensation - but BBC Sherlock sparked SOOOOOO much sooooo good gay / bi fanfic - I doubt this has been there before 2010 in this extent. So, something started. If this keeps going, something might happen. I’m not saying to be content with fan fic - but take it as a starting point for writers, film makers, scholars.

If we don’t get johnlock now, I’m pretty sure we’ll get it in the next ten years - explicit.

Not just with this lovely pairing… which makes me sad. They could have done something really important… we’ll be sure on Sunday if they truly fucked up. If they played on queerbaiting, the outfall will be massive. They’ll loose their fanbase - which kept the show going and gave it credibility. See where you end up without us. Perhaps that’s why they are not sure if they’ll get a 5th series. Rightfully so!

I’m sure after Sunday, if “no johnlock” is confirmed (and I believe that is, unfortunately, the case) here will be a TON of shitposts. It’s already starting. I’ll have my own. For now I will reblog. 

I will have a lot to say, but not until the ink is dry on the season.