Out of Control

There is a turning point of my story that I have been unable to attempt writing. It has been eating at me for a while. I haven't written in a couple months because life has gotten in the way. When I have thought about what I want to write, I get distracted and my mind wanders and I can't think of how I want it to evolve.
On my first book, I never thought about the story much when I was away from the computer. I just sat down at random times, day or night and the story just unfolded before me. I never really got writer's block or had a hard time with it, it just came to life. When the words wouldn't come to me in the way I wanted to express them, I just got up and walked away and forgot about it. A short time later, even if it was only a few minutes, I just sat and typed away again, fresh and relaxed.
Now, I have the time, but when I sit down to write, it's almost as if I'm afraid of where it will go. I have a bad feeling about it. My character is in a dangerous situation and he has become a good friend to me. I am leery of trying to control what happens to him by trying to save him and at the same time compromising what I think my writing ability is.
It's almost like sitting down with a Ouija Board. I know if I let it happen, evil may take over and dominate. If that happens, will I, or my character, have the strength to come back? I'm kind of a fairy tale type of person. Somewhere in there, I believe in happy endings, good prevailing over evil, the bad guy receiving his just desserts....
I have been through a lot lately and the darkness is creeping in; the light at the end of the tunnel is getting dim. If this takes over, my character is going to suffer greatly. I'm not sure if I should wait until this passes over, or if I should just let my friend handle it on his own. Hopefully he is stronger than I am right now.