Digging deep and finding nothing…
Where do you find motivation? I think I’ve lost mine, though I’m not entirely sure what I did with it in the first place. I could have left it somewhere and I can only assume it was snatched by some young ruffian looking to exchange it for recreational drugs.
I wish it was something you could get at Argos. Float into your local store and speed flick through the catalogue with a poised finger, ready to prod the correct image and jot down the six-figure (or is it seven?) number that grants you permission to go to collection point A, where none other than ‘Saturday only shift’ Sasha grunts your order number at you and thrusts the item in your hands, informing you to have a nice day while sniffing up snot in her nose because she can’t be arsed to blow it with a tissue. On second thoughts, maybe I don’t want to get it from Argos…
But therein lies the problem, I’m demotivated and uninterested in anything at the moment, so how do you get around this?
If I’m honest, I’m the lowest I have been for a long time. I’m uninterested in everything I’ve tried to do and the other night I even considered emailing my publisher and telling them to tear up my publishing contract with them because I had no desire to continue working. Yes, even writing and prepping for my book’s release isn’t doing anything for me.
I have come to the conclusion that my career at my current job is pretty much over. The thought of getting up day after day and going into the office fills me with dread I’ve never even fathomed. I actually hate it, truly hate it. Today I was so unfocused that I made several silly mistakes that could have proved quite costly -literally!
I’m sorry for all the negativity, but I find it hard to talk about it personally, so venting to the internet where I know no one will want to read this will help to an extent. But I know there is a lot of rebuilding to do, especially within my own life. Career first, book second.
As yes, the book – that’s kinda in limbo at the moment. The manuscript is still being checked over by my editor and the cover is still going through a WIP, so there isn’t really much I can talk about there – sorry! Anything newsworthy I will pass on, but currently, I want you to be excited, not bored of the content I’m giving you. Please bear with me.
Its release is still scheduled for next year, I’m not sure when, though I am hoping to guest at Swindon Comic Con in 2017, maybe I’ll decide to launch it then.
But that all depends on where I can get some motivation. I wonder what time Argos shuts….
