need to read a million books

Do you dream about libraries? I do. My recurring library fantasy is like that scene in the Disney "Beauty and the Beast" movie where the Beast ushers Belle into a beautiful library. But my fantasies are even more specific. A voice says "These are the books that will be the most important for you to read in your life." Or else, project specific: "This is the library you need to write the book you're working on right now."

I often imagine that there is a book out there that I must read in order to be able to do any justice to my current project. Right now I'm suffering that "I don't know enough to write this book" feeling. So I create ridiculous reading lists. Reading and research is beneficial, but it can be a bit stressful. I love to research a topic I'm interested in, but I'm noticing that it's tinged with a sense of inadequacy. While anything historical requires a certain amount of accuracy, beyond that I need to find the balance between searching for the answer out there in books and finding the answer in myself.