Hi, I'm Megan, and you scare me.

I've been pondering for a couple of weeks whether or not I should attend a Writer's group. I've managed to locate an English speaking on in my new home, and saw that it was very easy to get to from where I lived. It stated to be laid back, open, and encouraging. This was all fantastic with the exception of one thing:

People terrify me.

I'm a painfully shy human being, and I always have been. When I first moved to Halifax and started my new position in the Copy Centre, it took me almost a full year before I really spoke to anyone about anything besides work. When I transferred, this time taking the position of a leader/boss, I hid behind that persona. It was, after all, the perfect excuse to NOT socialize. Of course, after a while I opened up, but not much.

So, needless to say, since hitting the "Yes" button for the RSVP I've been shaking. I now have to go out into the world, seek out people whom I've never met, and sit with them to talk shop. I have to interact with real people, not just images on a computer screen with blog posts or tweets attached to them. How people get up, leave their home offices, and go to conferences I will never understand. To those people, I think you are the bravest souls in all of creation.

Because, hey, you can walk up to someone and talk to them. Me? I'll be the short one at the back looking like I'm trying to sink into the wall. Which is probably what I'll be at this writer's meeting tomorrow. Let's hope not.