At a Loss for Words

Today has not been a good day. I didn't sleep at all last night, not a wink. I got up with P.R. this morning and made breakfast. P.R. ate and I just sat with a cup of coffee. Then we said our weekly goodbye as the Taxi arrived to take P.R. to the airport.I really hate this arrangement. I was single for 46 years so you would think it wouldnt be such a big deal to be on my own for half the week. But I married P.R. because I wanted to actually live with P.R. I admit when there isn't another person to take care of I tend to not take as good of care of myself. Take tonight ...Normally, when P.R. is home I will make dinner most nights unless P.R. wants to cook, which is often. But when P.R. is gone I can have a fridge full of food and dinner will be tortilla chips and salsa, my dinner tonight in fact. I just get so lazy when I'm on my own. It's like if I don't have someone else to take care of it's just not worth the effort. I need to quit that.Another thing that was not great today, Shaggy has been throwing up all day. He acts like he feels fine, he's been as bouncy and playful as usual, but then he eats and it comes right back up. I even tried just cooking a little boiled chicken and rice for him and that too came right back up. He seems fine if you discount the throwing up, he's not running a fever, he's not dehydrated, he doesn't have any other other symptoms. If he's still doing this tomorrow I'm going to take him to the vet because I'm not going to take chances with my puppy. But even taking him to the vet can make him a bit worse. This is one of those time I really wish we had a car. Shaggy doesn't like being out in public, riding the busses, or being around all the people, and we will have to deal with all those things to get to the vet. I just hope he is better tomorrow and whatever was in his system gets out overnight.I know I should be working and writing book three but right now I'm so stressed out about Shaggy, It's just not a good idea, the words would fail me. So for now I'm going to watch Stranger Things on Netflix, cuddle my dog, and have a cup of tea. With any luck, tomorrow will be a better day.