August 2016

In 2015, I tried to join a book club. It went really, really bad, resulting in me just being such a nuisance to other members. I still find myself whispering "shinitai" (don't search the word!) to myself when I look back on that event.
It taught me many lessons. And I thought, maybe I should start from listening to what people thought about books, stories and ideas, before trying to say something myself.
So I started to attend smaller events, and went to a con held in Japan. And then, one thing leading to another, I decided to attend Worldcon this year.
(Oh past me, whatever happened to you?!)

Okay. So. I will be in Kansas City this August.

I was afraid to talk about this--I tweeted about this a couple of times, but I knew nobody was likely to be listening to me that way. Well, for one thing, I don't speak English well. I might miss the fabulous things people say there, or I might fail to make sense. And on some days I'm even worse than I usually am. I may have to ask you (if you ever decide to talk to me) to write it down, or I may just stand there smiling thinly, leaving you wondering why you ever talked to me at all. I'm still afraid.
Or, OR, maybe, perhaps, I wonder just in case, I might make sense and I might enjoy it all there.

So. If you are going. See you in Kansas City.

(Still a bit shaky (；ω；))