Make It Happen

“We cannot go back.  We have to make the right choice.”-as heard while watching Jared Leto in the 2009 film, MR. NOBODY
June 12, 2016I was at the local groovy card store on Sunset Boulevard near my condo and found a postcard of THE HONEYMOONERS.  It reminded me of my dad and when I used to watch this silly, funny show with him.  My dad would really laugh at the expressions of Jackie Gleason as Ralph Kramden and Art Carney as “Norton”.  I bought the card and sent it to mom.  I needed to express my woes about my current job, too. I want OUT.  I wrote: 6-12-90Hi Mom,I saw this card and it reminded me of “DAD”.  Remember how he loved this show?  He used to crack-up at Ralph Kramden.  I used to watch it with him at 11:30P on weeknights and we’d laugh together.  I’m sure you watched it with him before.I sent John directions yesterday.  If you should get lost you can always move in with me.  Ha-ha.I was depressed about my job situation.  I had another talk with my manager about “career pathing”.  I told her I was thinking of “retiring” because I know this job inside and out and how “I want OUT” unless another opportunity comes along.  Good dirt, huh?  Love, “M”
Paloma wrote me recently, too.  Here’s the latest with her.  She included a cool postcard of her CAP D’AGDE area in the South of France.
Dear Michael,Sorry I didn’t write much lately but I’ve been very busy working and also very tired.  Aren’t we lucky?   So…you are thinking of Hawaii again, huh?   Some of us really have all the luck.  Today they said in the news that Hawaii was having some pollution problems.  I didn’t hear everything so I don’t exactly know why.  
I hope I didn’t send you this card before.  I’m having a hard time remembering which ones I’ve already sent you.  I bet you’ve got the same problem by the way.  I already got the M and M’s card. 
….I was going to call you on your Birthday but I realized I didn’t have your number.  Too bad!  Jonathan’s birthday (JUNE) is just 9 days after yours.  He still is really cute and so funny now.  He talks every day and says new words.  He repeats everything.  He is really smart (just like his mommy, right?).  Right now I keep him with me all day long.  We play in the pool together.  He loves water.Look at the stamps on the envelope.  There is a bicycle.  Do you still collect them?I have to go now…write me.  I miss you.Love, Paloma
I still haven’t “given in” about my relationship with Alan to Paloma.  I’m sure it will all come out in due time.  I sometimes wonder if I’m simply infatuated with Alan.  Or is it love…or is there a connection with the two?   I am meeting Alan’s mother soon.  It will be a casual dinner or lunch somewhere.  That ought to be interesting.
And so, I must write to Paloma again with more of the same scoop.  I need more excitement in my life.  Don’t we all need excitement at times?   I always remind myself that one is only bored because they are bored by choice.  I am now finding ways to choose time wisely and make every day more worthwhile.  I’ll make it happen.  It’s all about ‘me’ and what I choose to do (or plan to do).    Things don’t just happen.  One has to make them happen.  Make it happen. “I think infatuation has gotten a bad rap.  That’s why a lot of relationships break down.  LOVE without infatuation is not enough.   Cause it’s infatuation  that brings playfulness, indulgence, romance.  LOVE, on the other hand, is about patience and loyalty and, very importantly, nurturing---that impulse to take care of someone and see to their needs.  So when you hear people saying, ‘I LOVE you but I’m not IN LOVE with you,’ what they’re really saying is that they wouldn’t go with you at two in the morning to find a pint of Haagen-Dazs ice-cream anymore.”--Colin Channer, WAITING IN VAIN, a novel