Will I Stand Or Will I Fall?

Received some very good news yesterday. I have a friend who is going to appear on the Food Network. This opportunity is going to blow her into the stratosphere. It's an opportunity many aren't lucky to get. I hope she knows what to do with it. I mention it because I've been wishing these great things for her, all the while wishing great things for myself. I've always felt that success is a large enough table for all to find a seat at. It doesn't have to be an either/or scenario where one person has to lose out for another to gain. And while she is about to enter into a new and exciting phase of her entrepreneurial life, I find myself becoming languid. No one really reads these posts, I can't very well pretend they do and I really wish I could say they did, but  the numbers don't lie. Maybe I was hoping to find strength from it. But, I guess I'll have to find it from somewhere else. My friend's turn of luck inspires me, because I want to sit at that big table with her. I don't want to be left behind. Success has a way of separating people, as it sometimes should. You shouldn't want to take everyone you've ever known on your journey to the next level. that can become quite distracting. I guess I worry that my chances are evaporating into nothing.  I just read an article about a writing duo who write "urban fiction". What I got from the article is that the stories are so compelling that they almost forgive a number of other sins. I'm guessing that for a long time there was limited editing being done. How else could they turn out four to five books a year? Now they have over fifty novels. And they have a fan base that is off the charts. And yet, I take the time to do everything right to write a well written book, and as a result, The Dog Catcher received great reviews. But still no one knows about it. I'm trying very hard to stay positive. I don't want my mind to begin slipping into an abyss of negativity. I just don't know...