2013... Ding, Dong the Witch is Dead! or Happy New Year - here's hoping...
I'm not one to hold a public pity party (or even really a private one, for that matter- it's too easy to get stuck in that tar-pit of thought), so I won't go into any sort of detail about the suffering that 2013 has wrought upon my life more than to say that it has been a difficult year for me. Some of you are close enough to me to know what I'm talking about. For the rest of you- it's been a rough year, let's leave it at that. That being said, I am someone who constantly seeks out the silver linings, the positive aspects (even if it's hard work sometimes not wallowing in the downside to everything), the blessings...and for each and every one of the things I thought might kill me (figuratively), there was something good that also happened to remind me that life is good even when it's really fucking hard.
So this's what I want to close out 2013 with- 'you take the good, you take the bad, you add them up and there you have the facts of life...' Yea, I know it's the theme-song to a sitcom. So? It's true. We all have struggles in this life - and there are a million reasons for it, from our own inabilities to external forces like a shitty economy or bad genetics (external in the fact that there's nothing you can really do about it)...but that's life. Bad things happen to good people all the time and assholes get lucky. People have to make difficult choices every day. It doesn't feel fair, but it's reality. And it's something we all have in common...even the most charmed of us have something shitty happen at some point.
Lovers don't always love you. Jobs don't always fall at your feet. Illness comes a-knockin' and sometimes people will fuck you over. Sometimes you get several shitty things happening in a series that feels like you've fallen into a vortex of fuck you and the universe gives you an atomic bitch-slap for no apparent reason, despite your best efforts. It happens...
The optimist, the hopeful spirit within me, believes that it won't always be so hard- that at some point, things will balance out and the high seas will become calm, making the sailing smooth once again. That all the hard work and strife will actually pay off somehow in the end. This has always been true up to this point and I have no reason not to believe it will remain so. It's up to me to muster my mettle and keep at the oars and rudder- to not give up and to remain at the helm rather than to throw my hands in the air and let my little dinghy capsize. This is what character is. That and having the wisdom to see when a change is needed and having the fortitude to make it so- even when that change is hard to swallow.
I know that I'm not the only one for whom mercury seemed to be in sustained retrograde (or whatever cosmic theory is popular these days to explain such a run)...I hope that if you are struggling in your life right now, if you have been having a hard time- in whatever way- that you will take some of my optimism for your own- because it WILL get better if you keep working at it. There ARE ALWAYS BLESSINGS and SOMEONE out there LOVES YOU. Sometimes that's enough to see us through. It has to be, because truthfully? It's all we ever really have anyway- just some days are more abundant and obvious than others.
So here's to a Happy New Year (and please be safe in your celebrations)! May 2014 be twice as amazing to make up for 2013! I'd be pretty happy if it were only half as great as the good parts of 2012 LOL
So this's what I want to close out 2013 with- 'you take the good, you take the bad, you add them up and there you have the facts of life...' Yea, I know it's the theme-song to a sitcom. So? It's true. We all have struggles in this life - and there are a million reasons for it, from our own inabilities to external forces like a shitty economy or bad genetics (external in the fact that there's nothing you can really do about it)...but that's life. Bad things happen to good people all the time and assholes get lucky. People have to make difficult choices every day. It doesn't feel fair, but it's reality. And it's something we all have in common...even the most charmed of us have something shitty happen at some point.
Lovers don't always love you. Jobs don't always fall at your feet. Illness comes a-knockin' and sometimes people will fuck you over. Sometimes you get several shitty things happening in a series that feels like you've fallen into a vortex of fuck you and the universe gives you an atomic bitch-slap for no apparent reason, despite your best efforts. It happens...
The optimist, the hopeful spirit within me, believes that it won't always be so hard- that at some point, things will balance out and the high seas will become calm, making the sailing smooth once again. That all the hard work and strife will actually pay off somehow in the end. This has always been true up to this point and I have no reason not to believe it will remain so. It's up to me to muster my mettle and keep at the oars and rudder- to not give up and to remain at the helm rather than to throw my hands in the air and let my little dinghy capsize. This is what character is. That and having the wisdom to see when a change is needed and having the fortitude to make it so- even when that change is hard to swallow.
I know that I'm not the only one for whom mercury seemed to be in sustained retrograde (or whatever cosmic theory is popular these days to explain such a run)...I hope that if you are struggling in your life right now, if you have been having a hard time- in whatever way- that you will take some of my optimism for your own- because it WILL get better if you keep working at it. There ARE ALWAYS BLESSINGS and SOMEONE out there LOVES YOU. Sometimes that's enough to see us through. It has to be, because truthfully? It's all we ever really have anyway- just some days are more abundant and obvious than others.
So here's to a Happy New Year (and please be safe in your celebrations)! May 2014 be twice as amazing to make up for 2013! I'd be pretty happy if it were only half as great as the good parts of 2012 LOL
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