Get Thee Hence

I have a confession:

I don't pray or read my scriptures like I'm supposed to. Like I really, truly want to.

I try to rationalize it. Because in my "good" phases, when I'm reading and praying the most, I think that I'm also facing more temptations and controversy in my life. Sometimes when I pray, the opposite thing happens. Or things get worse instead of better. Sometimes I think it is just