When You're Not Looking

When You're Not Looking

Love, they say, is an elusive thing

That you can catch

Out of the corner of your eye

But disappears when you turn

But I went after it anyways

Wearing the camouflage

All the other girls wore

Emulating their tactics

Blending in with the group

Days passed

Months perhaps

And I found no glimpse of success

So the other girls

Thickened their paint

And stomped through the underbrush

Hoping to be obvious

To be caught

But me?

I washed of my pretend skin

I turned my back

Later I would say

It was because I learned to love myself

But that was a lie

I wasn't being strong

I didn't love being unique

I only laughed so loud

Because I thought no one cared

And then one day

I turned around and gasped

For it's funny what you find when you're not looking