Trusting the Wrong People, Releasing Pain, and Avoiding Conflict
[image error]This week's Anonymous Prophecy Reader is Beneath the Day! I've made an exception to our usual "Anonymous Picture" rule as this reader is over 18 and chose this picture to represent their interview.
She's AH-dorable! And witty and smart, too.
Hope you enjoy getting to know her as much as I did!
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Also, on Wednesday I'll have an announcement regarding tour and launch information for the Circle of Fire release which is now only a little over TWO MONTHS away. SO EXCITED!
JUST THE FACTS
Interview Code Name (you choose!); Beneath the Day
Current country of residence; U.S.
Male or female? Female
Age; 20
ABOUT THE BOOKS
How many books, on average, do you read a month? Anywhere from 8-12 books a month, depending on the length of the book.
Favorite kind of book and why; Paranormal romances, or any paranormal or fantasy book. Because to be frank I find reality to be dreadfully boring, and I go to bed every day wishing that tomorrow will bring more excitement. So when I go and read a book I need it to have action, to have creatures that aren't in nature, to pull me into a world completely their own. I want a book I can dream, daydream and fantasize about.
Name the single most important factor in your decision to purchase a book; At first glance it is the cover. If the cover looks interesting I will pick it up, then if the synopsis gets me, I buy it.
What makes you feel like you're reading or have read a truly amazing book? When I am sitting there at like 12 in the morning, eyes threatening to close and I tell myself "Just finish this chapter." Then after I finish that chapter I tell myself "Just ONE MORE chapter!!"
How important is a friend's recommendation in your decision to purchase a book? To be honest it isn't that important, not that I don't accept recommendations or anything or don't appreciate them, I just don't really need them. I've discovered all of the books on my shelf on my own, and I think that's how I'm going to keep it. I mean, who knows my taste better than me!
Thing you'd like to see more or less of in the YA genre; I want more mythology in this genre, I think it is so interesting and fantastic, and SO much can be written about it! And I would sincerely like to see fewer vampires. While I am a fan of vampire books, I think that there is a time to just say 'no' to vampires. (ha!)
What's your biggest pet peeve in a book? When an author is a Mary Sue, which is when they make the character into someone they WANT themselves to be. Where the character looks suspiciously like the author, and likes all the things the author does. It just makes me feel like the character is just a copy and not an original and that the character didn't come their imagination, only their reflection.
Paperback or hardcover? Hardcover, though I do hate that stupid sleeve, I always have to take it off the second I start reading it.
Series or stand-alone? Both are fine with me, there are some books that should've been a stand-alone that are a series, and vice versa.
ALL ABOUT YOU
If you had a life philosophy or motto, what would it be? A quote from Shel Silverstein: "Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me…anything can happen, child. Anything can be." (LOVE!)
Are your parents divorced? I'm extremely thankful that they aren't, I don't know what I would do!
Do you feel that being a teenager is difficult? If so, why? Honestly? Yes. While others think that the problems that happen when you're a teenager will seem so petty when you graduate high school, people have to remember that these problems lead to serious consequences. Drug abuse, alcohol abuse and sadly, suicide are all caused by something that happens mainly to only pre-teens and teenagers; bullying. It is sickening that only NOW after teens had to die that bullying is being taken serious.
List some of your hobbies. Well I love writing poems and stories, I'm currently working on my first novel. I love, love, LOVE to read! You know, the normal answers people give, listen to music, hang out with friends. I'm pretty typical!
Why do you think teenagers feel the need to label one another? I feel that it's because they are having trouble dealing with their own issues that they have to make someone else feel bad to bring themselves up. It's cliché, I know, but very true.
Favorite color? Purple!
Is there anything in your past that makes you sad or angry? If so, are you willing to share it here? Oh gosh, there are so many things. But I think the one thing that sticks out the most is trusting the wrong people. I let one person in, and told her everything about me, all my fears and deep secrets and one secret was so dark that if it got out it would ruin me. She told the person it was about and it ended up getting around, I was mortified and embarrassed and my worst fear happened, I lost all of my friends. I graduated high school alone, all thanks to someone that I made the mistake of trusting. I still cry about it, I've never fully healed and now I don't trust anyone other than myself. (I have SO Been there, hon. *hugs*)
What is your passion? Writing. I haven't been so passionate about something before in my entire life, and I've never excelled at something before this. I get compliments, A's on all my papers, people asking to read my stuff. My writing is the only thing I have in my life that makes me feel good about myself. I've never been popular, and I've never had a lot of friends, so I turned to writing. I'm finally proud of myself, when I read what I write I can't help but just smile.
Do you feel the need to pretend to be someone you're not? If so, why? I'm not going to lie to you guys, sometimes I do. I change who I am depending on who I am around, it isn't a dramatic change, but I'm never completely ME when I'm with people. I've been hurt and rejected so many times in the past I'm afraid of losing people, I'm afraid of not being liked, so I think that if I'm not me then they won't leave me.
What kinds of things do you think about when you're all alone? I have a weekly ritual, every Sunday I always ask myself the same question when I'm alone, "How did I let it get this bad?" I sit there and think about all my mistakes, and all the reasons I'm in the situation I'm in now. And I just cry, I release all my pain, anger, hurt, self-loathing, pity, everything. Then when I'm done, I brush myself off and prepare myself for the week, and do it all again in a week. (
How do you keep your bed? Covered in pillows? Made perfect every morning? a mess of tangled sheets? I make sure it's made after I get up, always putting my soft blanket on first, then my body pillow, then my comforter and finally my 2 giant pillows.
Do you ever feel the need to be invisible? If so, why? Of course. There are times when I'm just tired of all the stress and criticism and I wish that I could just be invisible, to escape for just a little bit. Be at peace, even if just for a moment.
Do you believe that you will ever find the type of love in books and movies? I'm such a bitter person when it comes to love, I refuse to let myself believe that love like that really exists, so I don't get my hopes up just to be let down.
Do you like school? Why or why not? There is this quote by Oscar Wilde that sums up my thoughts on school: "Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught."
Do you believe that education is important? ^See the above quote.^
Are the cliques you read about or see on TV present in your school? To an extent they were, but not to the extreme that I read and see. They exaggerate the cliques a lot.
Do you ever feel awkward and uncomfortable? Who doesn't? I mean I don't know of anyone who has NEVER felt like that before, and those who say they haven't, are lying. It's completely normal to feel awkward or uncomfortable, and I'm definitely not ashamed to say I feel like that a lot.
Favorite animal? Probably the wolf, they are such beautiful creatures.
Have you ever been mean to someone? If so, why? How did it make you feel afterward? I regret to say I actually have, to be honest I don't even remember the reason, it was years ago. All I remember is becoming so depressed afterwards that I didn't leave my room for 3 days. I can happily say I learned from that experience, and I have never been mean to anyone since then.
Do you regret any of the choices you've made? If so, are you willing to share them here? Yes. The biggest mistake was being too trusting. I trusted anyone and everyone I became friends with and have regretted it ever since. I can't even count on 2 hands how many friends I lost by trusting the wrong people, it still haunts me 7 years later.
Do you wonder or worry about what other people think about you? Be honest! Very much so! I am always afraid that people don't like me, I have a fear of rejection, so I'm always wary around people at first. I try to please everyone and stay COMPLETELY on their good side, so I make sure that I don't start fights or saying anything that could upset them. Some people say I'm too nice, but to me all it is is me trying to avoid conflict.
