Seize the PayDay

What does it mean

when you come full

circle and still

remember

value

thirst

need

greed

circle it

walk away

come back

and still

remember

love

hate

your past

your desires

you go home

you go to sleep

you wake up and

come back to it

circle it

circle around it

sit on it

never letting go of all

that must be

and that should not have been

what does it mean when you can

heal

and

stand taller than you have ever stood

before

you used to

cry a lot

you used to be bitter

and resent

the same things

every single morning

you used to form lines

on your face

from scrunching it so much

so dissatisfied

so out of touch

with even yourself

not realizing that there is

more to you

than what you could have had

but

didn’t get and won’t

you need something bigger

than what you can’t have

you need to grow

evolve beyond your constant desires

learn

something

new

because anything that you really need

is always going to find it’s way to you

as long as you don’t give

into it

that feeling

up

that feeling

away

that feeling

back

that feeling

it means that you are living

and you can see the future

as that which you own

and have always owned

seize the payday