Co-exist

I don’t know

how to

tell you this

but

today

I woke up

and I couldn’t remember

anything

that was a problem

only the pending run

ahead

I flew out the door

down the street

and onto the track

over and over

again

I tried

to project my body to another space

in time

like

not where I’m standing

like not where I was running two seconds ago

like far far away around the track

right away

and it felt good

and I felt clean

with fresh air I jammed down my throat

as I sucked in every breath

to propel myself faster and faster

yes

I am afraid of remembering my problems

like

these problems

that reoccur

and I can think of no way to fix

must just be unfixable

and so if I can

I embrace you

and forget you

as often as possible

you’re just the fly on the wall

and I don’t kill you

don’t want to kill you

we just co-exist

and make the best of it