POEM – I CANNOT CRY

I wrote this poem after a few months in therapy. I am learning so much about myself and how amazing our inner souls react to years of stress and challenges. This poem expresses what I have learned so far and why I have felt I was living outside of my body for many years.

I CANNOT CRY

I cannot feel sadness;

I cannot cry.

The tears are not there;

dear God, please tell me why.

I had a very challenging life

which caused me to be withdrawn.

Dear God, is this why I cannot cry

because the tears are all gone.

I want to feel emotion after many years of not,

how can I let go of all my anger

dear God, if my heartache will not stop.

God answered me in my dreams;

he said my dear you need to let go

Of all the pain within.

He said if I do not let go,

a new happy life will not begin.

I believe God supported me through the years.

I do not believe he is the cause of my lack of tears.

I believe he helped me through the pain

and taught me to be strong for which I gained.

I must reach out to him once more

to help me let go of my painful years

and guide me one more time

to help me bring back my tears.

Judith Iris Quate