If I was a …

If I was a prostitute

I would not charge

because

I get paid

in other ways

like

the spiritual toll

of you

loving someone

who does not love you back

you pay me

every time

you forget

to say my name

then you can’t remember

how to find me

when you need me

when you have no one

because you really loved no one

but

yourself

every time you

sell my body

my soul pours into

all men

and

you become

what you thought you made

me

worthless

you all become me

obsessed with my body

losing your self

and

if you were real rich really

you could keep me to yourself

you would not have to share

you would care

what happens

to your sister

your aunt

your daughter

your mother

you would see me

as someone

you know

in your family

and then you would cry

and then you would feel

and then your soul

would fill up with something

like love

like respect

like desire

you would miss me

you would talk to me

you would ask me

questions

all I need is questions’

answers

like

why do you need me

more than you need

yourself

no condom

that’s like

you just asked me

to kill you

just so you could pretend

you feel good for 5 minutes

you’re just telling me

that I have more to give

you

in 5 minutes

than you could ever give

yourself

in your short

lifetime