Rabid Reader Ramblings: I Can’t Believe I Missed #BBAW, and other things.

 

Book Blogger Appreciation Week was one of my favorite blogger events, and I cannot believe that they finally brought it back this year, and I missed it!

You may have noticed I have not been posting very consistently lately.  There are some reasons for that.  I tend to stay a fairly private person and try to keep a lot of my personal life separate from my blog life, but the fact is, I know you guys will understand.  In reading through some other blogs in my rss readers, I know that I am not alone.

The depression fairy had reared it’s ugly head and I went several months where I couldn’t even think about picking up a book.  I have been dealing with some intense stress in my personal life and my health took a few blows this year.  I have struggled a bit with what that is going to mean and trying to find a balance between meeting all of my obligations and taking care of myself.

So I let the reading and the blog slide.  This makes me really sad because this blog and the blogging community has always been my solace, the one thing I could depend on no matter how crappy and out of control everything else in my life has been.

And I find that I miss it.  I miss connecting with you all and knowing that someone is reading what I have to say and actually cares about my words.

The great irony is that, as a writer, I am among a unique group of people who put all kinds of words out there, but sometimes we never say anything.  We don’t talk about how we are feeling because we think people don’t usually care.  People care about the next story, about reading about our characters, about the great fictional kingdoms we can create.  But we don’t think they care about us.  But I am pretty sure that this is not true.

There are people out there who care and want to know how we are.  The truth is if all is not right with us, how can we create those great works of fiction that entertain the masses, right?

And as a blogger, other bloggers really do care about how we are.  We are a close knit community that, although it has expanded quite a bit since I started several years ago, really does care about each other and we want to be there for each other and I need to remember that.

So this is me, outing myself as human, fallible.  I am not perfect and I have emotions.  I may have been down but I am definitely not out and I will be making a comeback.  It may be slow, but I am coming back.

So drop me a line.  Tell me if you have ever hit a slump like this and how you combatted it.  Or just say hi.  I miss you all and would love to reconnect!