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Under the Spell of the Moon on Savage Island

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Glenn Miller was the king of swing until his plane disappeared over the English Channel in 1944. He’d been in London, broadcasting both entertainment and counter-propaganda when he got on a single engine plane to Paris, never to be heard from again.

When I was a little kid, growing up in the late 1970s amongst the schizoid dichotomy of flash and frowzy bad taste, I came across one of Glenn Miller’s albums in my grandparents’ sparse record collection. One that consisted almost entirely of polka. Miller offered me zip and glamour from the get-go. A sense of style that had gusto and a yen for a time that seemed better to me somehow. Clear and dignified, populated by people with a back bone, who dressed up for life. Fixed their hair, tipped their hat. People like my grandparents, but minus the polka.

Even when my hip, older step-sister, the one who had an actual disco dancing outfit complete with purple satin pants and Candies stilleto sandals, mocked me for listening to what she called “La-la music”, I would not be deterred.

“Did you know he scored sixteen number one records and had sixty-nine top ten hits?” I challenged her. I’d scavenged that information from the Encyclopedia Britannica. “That’s more than Elvis and The Beatles.”

“Who cares?” She said. “Nobody listens to them anymore either.”

Glenn Miller’s music was ubiquitous throughout the World War II era, which is also the era in which Savage Island, my new novel debuting at the end of September, takes place. I guess that’s no accident. I return to that time again and again in my fiction. It’s my go-to, the place where all of my ideas are somehow born.

There was one song of Miller’s in particular that I couldn’t get out of my mind as I was writing this fantasy-inspired wartime romance, the first in an epic new series that not only spans the globe, but takes place over a period of some six thousand years. And it wasn’t In the Mood or Chattanooga Choo Choo –both of which blasted out of dance halls coast to coast during that time, urging everyone to tap their toes and forget about the war for awhile. No, for this fan girl of the 1930s and 40s, the song that inspired the deepest nostalgia and had me up late into the night writing love scenes filled with longing and punctuated by first times was Moonlight Serenade. Miller’s most romantic melody, it has a slow groove that compels you to wrap your arms around your lover and sway. There’s a note of sadness and mystery to the tune, too, because like any great wartime love song, it doesn’t just celebrate the moment…it also hints at goodbye.

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And there’s something else that it does, using its advantage almost unfairly. Giving us a thrill and chill that seeps its way into our consciousness like a cool mist on a waterfront.

It offers the moon. Literally, figuratively, transcandentally.

If jazz was the music of an era – fresh and new, dancing tip-toed with the brazen singularity of a dandy, the moon is, was, and ever shall be the poetic figure of eternity. It promises so much, showing us mere mortals the closest thing there is to God’s face. It’s a serene and sublime fixture in a turbulent universe – one that has looked down on us since before the birth of the first man, and will stay with us until the last one takes his final breath.

There’s a reason we make wishes as we stand under her bold, blue light.

Miller had to have had this in mind when he was writing Moonlight Serenade. With his classic ambition, he was aiming at creating something that was for the then and now, but strived to hang around a lot longer than that. It’s a piece of his imagination that he wanted to linger after the war had ended and everyone had gone home. That might haunt subsequent generations the way Miller’s sudden disappearance and presumed death haunted the last months of that long and brutal war.

Every artist understands such an aspiration. The need for our work to cast a shadow, leave an echo and an ache. Even self-admitted commercially minded artists like Glenn Miller, who once said, “By giving the public a rich and full melody, distinctly arranged and well played, all the time creating new tone colors and patterns, I feel we have a better chance of being successful.”

But if it was just success he was after, going for the moon, so to speak, he would have never added an almost mystical, heartsick element to his lunar homage. He might have let the song remain sexy and simple, with the kind of mystery that might leave you wondering what color garter a lady wears under her skirt, but not what sacred marvels make up her soul.[image error]

Perhaps in part because of Miller’s influence, my childhood memories of sitting on a shag carpet and listening to Moonlight Serenade, I’ve often used the moon as an inspiration in my fiction. Most recently, as the moon follows my lovers through history, through each life they’re born to, helping them find one other time and again. In Savage Island, the specter of our one and only satellite winks at these two unsuspecting hearts, offering glimpses of shadow memories – of all the times they’ve met, loved and lost each other. Of all the times they’ve basked in the lunar glow, standing hand to hand, leaning in for a kiss.

Moonlight Serenade helped me ground my characters in the present of the tale I was allowing to unfold. Illustrating what was at stake in 1944, and articulating the very themes of honor and purpose and struggle and devotion that had woven their destinies together forever.

Yet it was the actual moon that gave them to each other in the first place, in their first life many millennia before Glenn Miller’s music first crooned and crackled out of a ham radio. And it’s that very moon that can rip them away from one another again, just as easily.

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(Excerpt)

Will walks onto the rock plank and stands on its brink, his silhouette stamped onto the face of the very moon that’s inked onto the back of his neck. His head is turned away from us and facing out towards the sea.

“Ah’kwarah’a,” I call out to him. The words just spill out of me and I cup my hands over my mouth, my heart batting away in my chest.

“What’s that gobble-dee-goop?” Ku asks me.

Will cocks his head and I know he understands. Even if he can’t possibly. Even if I’ve never known the words I spoke and can’t imagine where they came from. I only know they were in my dream, and I wrote them down this morning as soon as I opened my eyes.

They mean, I was born for you.

—Savage Island, coming soon…

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The island of Niue, 1944.  On this remote island, deep in the South Pacific, about 1,500 miles from its closest neighbor, it hardly feels like a war is on.  Angelie, a 17-year-old Australian girl, is waiting out the war on the island, where warm tropical winds blow through her hair almost as gently as native islander Will Tongahai’s eyes graze her body.

But the arrival of an African archaeologist and his German consort unsettle the inhabitants of this tranquil isle, and Angelie begins to wonder if the war hasn’t finally reached their shores.

As Angelie and Will are drawn to the suspicious pursuits of the new visitors – an ancient statue, a fantastic myth – a series of vivid dreams about deserts and long forgotten prophecies ensnares them. The lovers discover that their destiny, one forged thousands of years earlier, is not only bigger than their prospective future together, but makes a mere world war look like child’s play.

Keeping the Faith

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Photo by Joseph Chan on Unsplash

I’ve been watching the demonstrations in Hong Kong, and to a lesser extent in Moscow with great interest, as readers of this blog might imagine. It’s been incredibly emotional for me to see the citizens of Hong Kong wave the American flag and sing our national anthem in their protests against the mainland communist regime that’s been cracking down on them slowly, but surely, since Britain relinquished their former colony to China nearly twenty years ago.

It’s difficult to describe what this means to someone who comes from a family of political refugees. Whose mother still clenches her fist and talks about what she experienced as a political dissident in a communist country. What escaping and coming to a democratic nation, one with a constitution by and for the people meant to her. It’s become almost passé, hasn’t it – such sentiments?

Yet, the truth of the matter is that the freedoms we take for granted and even deride at times are precious to those who are in acute risk of losing them. It’s good to be reminded of that every once in a while.

“You have no idea what it was like!” My mother still says at our dinner table at least once a week. “Nobody here – they don’t know and they will never know until it happens to them.”

I certainly hope it never happens to us.

And I desperately hope that the people of Hong Kong and the people advocating for more democracy in Russia won’t be squashed by their state, or largely ignored by a world which sympathizes, surely, but simply doesn’t have the political will to do anything but feel really bad about what’s happening over there.

“We have our own problems,” we say. And we do. Only ours over here in the West seem to be self-inflicted right now.

Our political screaming matches, our crisis of confidence – those seem to have shaken us to the core, making us doubt our very foundations, every institution we’ve ever built, each step we’ve ever taken. I pray we can shake off this temporary insanity soon. I long for us to embrace one another again, be grateful for what we have and reach out to those within and without our communities who are struggling. Who might look to us for inspiration and help.

I believe we will, because I believe in the raucous symphony of democracy. What we have is a pain in the ass to be sure. Democracy, by its very nature is flexible and forward moving. It requires a willingness to change, and to take responsibility. Personal responsibility when things go wrong. When our elected leaders disappoint us. When we fall short of our own expectations.

And it requires faith.

The Writing Life

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My youngest babe recently asked me how it was that I started writing about “all this stuff” in the first place. It’s hardly an unusual question, and often comes from folks who genuinely like to write and are even quite good at it, but somehow never find the time or mental space to take it up as more than a here and there kind of thing.

Or are too timid about their prose to ever consider showing it to anyone.

The fact is, a lot of folks think up fantasy scenarios and might even dabble in getting their thoughts down – in a diary, perhaps. But “congenital” writers somehow manage to make writing a complusive habit. Despite the fact that many of us writer types are very interior people, we seem to feel the need to have others actually read our work, too. It’s quite a conundrum.

This girl is always full of questions (and she’s a great writer, too)

“I’m not just asking about the made up stuff,” my daughter clarified. “I mean when you write about Nana and us and all of that. Were you writing about real things, too, when you were little and showing them to your friends and teachers?”

This seemed simultaneously fascinating and mortifying to her. She’s already heard her brother and sister complain about how some of their classmates have read my books and worse – looked up my blog. A girl who had a crush on my son actually poured through everything I’d ever written about him, basically making the poor kid wish he could change his name and move to another state. I didn’t even write anything particularly embarrassing or all that private – at least from my perspective.

But writing personal essays is a bit like inviting someone into your home. Even if you don’t spill your guts to them, or blather on about anything too cringey, they still get to sample your cooking, get a feeling for your aesthetic, and have a long, hard look at the pictures you’ve chosen to frame. They get a glimpse into the family dynamic and note whether you drink one or two glasses of wine with dinner, you know what I mean? It’s all a bit intimate – there’s no doubt about that.

Still, I suppose without even realizing it, I’d set a place for the reader at my table long, long ago.

This really is my table

When I chose to write about family lore, I made a conscious decision to take a very big risk and expose not only my heart, but the hearts of those I love most. I did it in a pretty balls-out way, publishing my very first effort in the New York Times of all places. My Modern Love essay (“The Wrong Kind of Inheritance”) was about how my mom and I had always had a distant and complicated relationship when I was growing up, but became close after my infant daughter (the one in the “two-face” picture who loves asking all the questions) was born with cancer. I really did scrape it up from the depths of my soul.

It was a task that not only left my head spinning during the day, but gave me night sweats.

I’d never written a personal essay before then. Never even considered it. In fact, I didn’t even know much about the Modern Love column until my best girlfriend, a NYT stringer, told me “You have to write one!” after one of our long and winding telephone conversations during that awful time.

To top it off, however daunting it was to make sense of what was happening in my own life during my baby daughter’s fight for her’s, I also had to figure out how all of this fit in with the people in my family and their harrowing life experiences. Ones I’d been hearing about since I was in diapers, but had never felt the right to claim.

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As many of you know by now (at least those of you who have been a part of Cold Readers Club for more than a day or two), my family story is a two-hanky drama that gives Dr. Zhivago a run for its money. An epic adventure, it spans a World War, a Cold War, and a romantic, democratic revolution. There are more conflicting emotions and traumatic memories in my clan than there are mosquitos on a hot summer night. The amount of love and poetry and rapturous rage spewed at our table during an average family dinner takes many broods a lifetime or two of holiday parties, weddings, and funerals to amass.

I mean really, how many people out there have a dad whose own father was shot by a firing squad in his backyard when he was just a teen? A mother who was named an Enemy of the State when she was only twelve? Don’t even get me started on the rest of them.

“Please,” my girlfriend said. “I can feel the magic just talking to you.”

The magic. I think every writer has some idea of magic. It’s what makes us write in the first place, gives us our ideas, and draws us into a profession that’s right up there with movie stardom, pro sports and national politics when it comes to swinging for the fences. It makes us wrestle with our introverted selves, getting us to spill our blood and expose our innermost thoughts and fears to any stranger who happens upon our scribbles.

And I won’t deny it. I did feel the magic. My family had been fueling my fiction – everything from improv comedy skits to Cold War thrillers – for years. In retrospect, it now seems inevitable that I would come to tackle some form of more personal writing instead of always hiding behind the thick, velvet curtain of fiction. Always getting to manipulate exactly how the story will end.

Because that’s really what it’s about, these more personal narratives. What truly seperates them from fiction, apart from the obvious. It’s a level of exposure – when done right – that helps us draw broader themes from deeply personal experiences, paint them with some artistry, but doesn’t really allow us to control the reader’s perceptions or even our own. Because like a real conversation, the close kind that goes to places well beyond small talk, the reader is bringing her own story to the party, too, and catching you, the writer, in a candid moment…almost unawares.

This should have been our Christmas card

 

There But for the Grace of God

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The other day my twelve-year-old daughter, Josephine, said to me, “You’re lucky I saved your lives.”

She says a lot of funny things that make us raise an eyebrow, but the truth is she just might have saved our lives.

At the time of Josephine’s birth, our whole family of five was in the midst of planning a move to Mumbai, India. My husband had gotten a job there, and was already intalled at the Taj Hotel while he went through the hand-wringing task of trying to find an appropriate place of residence for two adults, two toddlers and a baby. It was slow going. Much slower than he’d anticipated even though his company was fitting the bill for it, allowing us a much bigger budget than our wallets could have otherwise afforded.

Mumbai was (and I’m sure still is) a gloriously crazy place where nothing was as it seemed. The most beautiful, well located apartments had jackhammers firing on the floors above 24/7, or were infested by several families of insidious varmints, or simply fell through at the last minute for no good reason. Six months after his arrival in India, my husband was still living at the Taj and wasn’t even close to signing a lease for us.

Then came Josephine.

She was born terribly ill and put the kibosh on our whole India adventure rather decisively. At first, we were too focused on trying to make sure she stayed alive to really think about the fact that our plans had radically changed. It was a few months after her birth, when we were at last getting a bit of a breather regarding her most acute health scares, that it started to sink in how we’d been forced to pass on what would have been a life-changing experience.

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Except that the term life-changing can be deceptive. It doesn’t have to be a good thing, after all. Life changing events can mean great jobs, weddings and births, or getting fired, losing an arm to a nasty infection, and falling out a window.

Months after Josephine’s harrowing birth, as we sat watching the Mumbai terrorist attacks on the news, we got a look at just what kind of life-changing event we might have been in for. The attacks were taking place in exactly the same hotel at which my husband had been ensconsed. The same hotel we would have probably, though hopefully not still been living in.

But nevertheless, the Taj Hotel was and remains a hub for ex-pats and internationals. The series of coordinated terrorist attacks we were watching with open-mouthed horror on our TV set took place on American Thanksgiving weekend, and that was in all likelihood a strategic date chosen by the handlers of the ten young Pakistani extremists who walked into the Taj armed to the teeth. As my husband pointed out, there was a very good to great chance that we would have been sitting in the Taj’s famous Blue Bar, or in one of their many restaurants, celebrating the holiday with our children and new friends.

“There but for the grace of God,” my husband said.

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The Taj Hotel, Mumbai

That’s why when Hotel Mumbai, a movie about those terrorist attacks came out recently, my husband and I were determined to go see it…even if we really didn’t want to. It’s not just because the depictions of the attacks would be gut-wrenching – one hundred sixty-six people were killed, after all, and mercilessly so. But also because that time in our lives isn’t one we revisit with any enthusiasm. Truth be told, there’s a lot that we’ve blocked from memory and even our most poignant experiences seem to come back to us in vignettes rather than whole pieces.

But Hotel Mumbai, despite the fact that we never made it to India as a family and did not actually live through the terror of that night, sucked us both into a kind of time portal that had us re-living the emotions of that year; the one we spent living on the brink of rational thought. When our house was a mess and we would forget to do things like shop for our older children’s school supplies – sending them into class empty handed on their first day.

Before things got a little bit better and we were able to think with some level of clarity again.

We were reminded of our younger selves, too. Those crazy new-ish adults who were hell-bent on throwing the dice and seeing where our fortunes would fall. Always having the utmost faith that the fates would bring us to a better place, and we would arrive smarter, wiser, ready for the next chapter.

In some ways that did indeed happen, although not how we expected it to. My husband and I had figured we would mature like a fine wine, gaining complexity from the luxurious process of getting to know exotic cultures, and testing our abilities to learn and adapt. Instead, our growth came about from getting to know ourselves…what we were made of and what we valued above all. And it arrived at a rather break-neck speed.

I suppose, depending on how you look at it, we did travel far away from where we started and to places we never could have imagined. We just did it without ever leaving our zipcode. We don’t regret remaining in our quiet, semi-rural home and we did gain wisdom, I think. Our daughter’s illness has certainly been an adventure in and of itself – I can’t deny that.

What became apparent to us as we watched Hotel Mumbai – in the casual loss of life that occurred, visiting the most unsuspecting people who, like us, had never been afraid of shaking things up – is how un-special we are. We saw ourselves in the Australian back-packing tourists, the father and daughter missionaries, the foreign residents and what became glaringly obvious was the randomness of life.

Truth be told, had we gone to Mumbai, we really may have been at the Taj Hotel that ominous night. Either as part of the carnage or witnesses to it. Even if we’d decided to stay in or celebrate Thanksgiving at the home of a friend, we would have never had another day of peace in that city. Each and every morning, we would have felt our hearts flutter as we put our children on a bus to go to the American School – a fortress of a place where incoming cars were routinely searched for bombs even before those horrific attacks occurred.

As I look at how things have turned out, I can’t help but be grateful for the unceremonious and breezy way in which we’ve sent our kids out to their respective school buses on any given day here in central Virginia, year after year.

So, yes, I feel a deep sense of gratitude to our youngest, Josephine. The one who took us on one hell of a ride, and continues to challenge and delight us on any given day. Because she may very well have saved us. If not our lives, then maybe our sanity.

 

The Man Who Came Out of the Cold

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“Here on Koh Samui, nobody gives a tinker’s cuss whether you’re a writer. They’re more interested in who’s buying the next round“ –John Dolan

I’ve read every one of John Dolan’s books. If a British noir detective story set in a beachy, glamorous place with a seedy underbelly appeals to you like it does me, then pour yourself a Mai Tai and read on.

Some of you may already know John’s writing, as I’ve featured him here in the Cold before (check out How NOT to write a bestelling thriller here!). Others, especially newbies to Cold, may see him as a shiny new penny. Either way, he’s got a book out in his Time, Blood and Karma series so I invited him to come back on. It’s called Everyone Dies, and as the title suggests, it’s the last in his popular thriller saga.

But that’s not really why I’m featuring him front and center this week. It’s a good excuse, but the truth is John Dolan is quite simply fun to talk to. He’s funny and wry and good natured. He also lives the ultimate writers life. This is a Brit who’s worked all over the world and finally landed on the island of Koh Samui, in Thailand, where he’s penned all of his novels from the comfort of his ocean view bungalow. That’s why, for the sake of our getting to live vicariously through him, at least for the length of this post, I’ve thrown some questions his way.

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ME: John, since you live the ultimate writer’s life – tell me about what your days are like. Don’t leave out hookers and cocaine if relevant.

JOHN: It’s hard to imagine a world where hookers and cocaine wouldn’t be relevant, but if I used them I’d never get any writing done. Well, nothing that would be readable anyway. Plus, divorce is really expensive, and my nostrils are quite big enough already without snorting white powder up them. No, for the most part my days are spent working out at the gym, walking the dog, keeping up with distant family and friends on social media, chilling at home or on the beach with my good lady, and eating in one of the many restaurants on the island. Sometimes, I even write stuff.

ME: ​Expat life and writing often go together like a horse and Russian cavalry officer. Would you agree with that statement? By the way, if your answer is no, this could be a very short interview.

JOHN: In that case, yes, I agree. There are probably more expats around than Russian cavalry officers at present, though both categories of persons are relics of a bellicose past. (I like the term ‘relic’ – it’s like ‘antique’, and implies I might be worth something one day.) But, yeah, there’s nothing quite like slobbing around on a tropical island and telling yourself you are writing a masterpiece. Plus, given that nobody on the island is likely to read your scribblings, your ego is not going to get dented. The Western World on the other hand is full of people with opinions, which probably explains why authors there tend to get in more fist-fights with disgruntled readers. Here on Koh Samui, nobody gives a tinker’s cuss whether you’re a writer. They’re more interested in who’s buying the next round.

ME: Your books take us through both the upmarket and downmarket parts of living in paradise. Tell me about the noir elements you see in a resort island like Koh Samui?

JOHN: However much an expat seeks to integrate into the community, there will always be elements of ‘unseen’ local ways. As a Westerner, you only get a sense of the way things really work here: though you do get the feeling that there are closets so stuffed with skeletons that there is barely room for clothes. Tourists, of course, only get a very superficial glimpse of Thai culture, and their attitudes tend to be conditioned by what marketing blurb they’ve read beforehand. And then there is the cannibalism cults which have been growing in popularity since [the rest of this answer has been redacted in the interest of good taste]

ME: Is that wh at made you want to move to Thailand, specifically?  That it’s not just all beaches and fruity drinks with little umbrellas?

JOHN: Actually, the lack of extradition treaties had a lot to do with it. Also, the weather and cheap coconuts.

ME: Cheap coconuts have always driven my international moves. So have cheap thrills. Had you always planned on becoming a thriller writer once you settled there?

JOHN: I never planned on becoming a thriller writer. I once had hopes of doing something useful with my life. I fell into writing while I was working and living in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. It was one of those sudden rushes of blood to the brain. Some devil with a pitchfork prodded me and said, “Why not write a series of seven novels set in Southeast Asia?” At the time, I couldn’t think of a suitable reason not to, so that’s how it started. Now, of course, I could come up with a gazillion reasons why not. It’s taken eight years of my life to write and publish the seven David Braddock books: eight years I’ll never get back. I could have done two PhDs in that time. Though when I consider it, ‘Dr. Dolan’ sounds pretty crappy, like the name of the baddie in a James Bond movie.

ME: For the record, you’d make an excellent Bond villain – particularly for your taste in hats.

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John Dolan: author and hat-wearer

ME AGAIN: How long had the Time Blood and Karma and Karma’s Children series been gestating in that (hatted) head of yours before you endeavored to write a single word? Do you remember your first inspiration for it?

JOHN: It actually happened pretty fast once the mind demon had poked me. The outlines for each of the seven books, and the overall story arc, all came together over a period of a couple of months. I have no idea where the inspiration came from, actually. Maybe I have a brain tumor. An erudite brain tumor who enjoys bad jokes and stories about death.

ME: In January 2014, you and I had a chat on Cold under the title How NOT to Write a Bestselling Thriller, which was one of my most popular posts ever. Are you following your own advice and, if so, how’s that working out for you?

JOHN: I am and it’s working out just fine. Since your post, I’ve only sold three books, and they were all to relatives. Though that hasn’t stopped me topping the Amazon book charts as the number one writer in the category of Thai Noir. See how easy it is to be a best-selling author? Anyone can do it, and usually does.

ME: The publication of Everyone Dies marks the closing of your seven-book cycle. How do you feel about that? (That’s meant with a menacing, Freudian tone, by the way.)

JOHN: Relieved. And it gives me time to read your books now. Just kidding, I’ve already read them, and I’m not going to read them again. Because I won’t get that time back again either.

ME: I suppose you won’t just be riding around in a rickshaw, stopping only to nurse your beers and your ennui now that your Karma books are all wrapped up. Got anything else cooking?

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Can you see John in this picture? (photo by Adam Sherez)

JOHN: My next book will be a historical novel set in 1950s Malaya during the time of the Malayan Emergency. However, I still have a ton of research to do for it, and don’t expect it to hit the shelves until next year. Hopefully, Vic, it will be right up your street: lots of Cold War stuff, plus bad jokes and death.

ME: So up my street! And now I won’t have to write any more new Cold War thrillers – I can just plagiarize yours! Any final outrageous self-promotion you want to do here before I cut you off?

JOHN: Well, I’ve just re-vamped my website and started a Newsletter with freebies which your readers can subscribe to if they’ve nothing better to do. And, let’s face it, if they did have something better to do, they wouldn’t be here ploughing through this garbage. They can click on johndolanauthor.com if they’re unsure whether life has no meaning, and I’ll do my best to confirm it for them.

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The Sublime Whisper of the Bad Habit

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“When I’m good, I’m very good. But when I’m bad, I’m better.” Mae West

Bad habits fascinate me. There are few among us who don’t partake in at least one behavior, train of thought, or activity which isn’t precisely in our best interest. Might cause friends and foes alike to narrow their eyes and say, “Oh, no! She didn’t!”

Whether it’s all too frequent binges on junk food, glasses of (good!) wine imbibed for health reasons (of course!), sexual proclivities which might not even be practiced, but researched into a bit too enthusiastically, or ill-advised political posts on social media that find their way into the void at ungodly hours… even the most saintly lot of us have the propensity to dabble in the naughty on occasion.

Why is that?

We don’t have to look too hard to see how the root of a bad habit’s appeal goes well beyond the pleasure of the experience. If it were only about pleasure, I think we could easily curb our excesses. Massages are immensely pleasurable, after all, but they hardly merit scholarship, front-page news stories and treatment centers. How many of us would risk losing our careers and flirt with bankruptcy or divorce or utter disgrace just to feel Darius’s able hands on our tired muscles once more? Here him ask, Where are you holding your tension today? in that soft, soothing voice of his while New Age muzak plays in the background. Never do we see men and women skulking away from spas in a walk of shame. On the contrary, they look relaxed, relieved and self-satisfied. I should do this more often, we hear them crow. No one disagrees.

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“I generally avoid temptation, unless I can’t resist it.” Mae West

The truth is, most of us understand the allure of a bad habit has less to do with an immediate pleasure and is more often fixed around the impression of a pleasure. Of how we have worked our minds to draw it using the most flattering of lines. In that way, bad habits tickle our consciousness like that lover who got away. We see him perpetually through the diabolical lens of a first time. Before he let us down, showed us his true colors. When he was all about a smile and a flutter in our bellies. And his every word was still spoken with an irresistible subtext of promise.

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“A man can be short and dumpy and getting bald, but if he has fire, women will like him.” Mae West

Lots of bad habits start off innocently enough, after all. They might even improve our lives – infusing us with a dash of style, a tinge of danger that makes others look at us anew. I’ll never forget my grandmother telling me the story of how she started smoking. She had a huge crush on my grandfather, an Olympic hockey player with the most dreamy blue eyes, but she felt too tall and bookish in his company. Finally, her friends told her the problem.

“You’re beautiful, Betty,” they said. “But you don’t look like any fun because you don’t smoke.”

After coughing her way through several clumsily rolled cigarettes, my grandmother found her footing. That weekend, she showed up at the hockey rink with a cig in hand. She’d never felt more sophisticated, and stood high and proud in her willowy 5’11” frame. A full inch taller than the handsome hockey player who would become her husband…

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“A hard man is good to find.” Mae West

Bad habits have a way of exploiting how we’d like to see ourselves, rather than showing us how we really are. While that has it’s uses – getting us into an “in” crowd, delivering a hot date, providing a plethora of entertaining stories for years to come – it can also lead us into a wicked hellscape if we’re not careful.

Few know this better than the Alcoholic. Problem drinkers often reminisce about what it was like when they first started on the sauce. How they nearly choked on the sharp and bitter taste as it hit the back of their throat, but felt a peculiar sense of accomplishment when the warm hooch flooded their chest cavity. It was a two-faced reward and they knew it, yet they still came to regard that feeling as the beginning of their transformation, an evolution into a fortified version of themselves. More confident and wry, better looking.  And the better they felt, the easier it went down. There’s a reason, after all, why booze is often referred to as a “glass of courage.” It’s a social elixir that helps tear down inhibitions, not only marshalling our witty thoughts, but giving us the gumption to actually say them.

Those initial halcyon days of a bad habit are heady indeed, and that’s not always a bad thing. A love of wine, the odd toke, a ripe libido – these things alone don’t take you down a ruinous path. In fact, for some they are the key to a happier, more successful life.

That conundrum, too, gives the bad habit its luster.

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“To err is human, but it feels divine.” Mae West

The element of danger in a bad habit is a pleasure all its own. It’s in the kick of tempting fate, of rebelling against a nameless, faceless mob of blue noses. Or a very specific blue nose – a father, a wife, a teacher a bureaucrat. In the moment when we succumb to that drink, that wicked woman, the cigarette, the hot fudge sundae, we feel sublime…until we don’t. But even that seesaw of emotions has its appeal. We tell ourselves that at the very least we’re not boring. We’re not, God forbid, one of…them. And if we’re honest with ourselves, we know damned well that’s not entirely a self-serving lie. People who flirt with the risqué are more interesting, more fun, a thrill to be around.

At least until they’re not.

And when we get sick of our bad habits? When they’ve done so much more harm than good, and we don’t even enjoy them anymore, we can throw down the gauntlet and vow to quit them once and for all! We’ll mean it, too – flushing, deleting, and opening the trash bin, raising our middle fingers high. Feels good – almost as good as the bad habit itself used to feel. And in such moments of clarity, we get to feel smug and reformed, ready to take on the world again.

Except we often find that casting off our bad habits is harder than we anticipated. Much harder. Even if we’ve come to hate every damn thing that came with them. Like the expensive paraphernalia, the wild and crazy memories, the so-called friends. In fact, in the event we do manage to put our bad habits behind us, we know all too well how a mere person or event, a strong emotion, could cause us to relapse in the blink of a bloodshot eye. In the dial of a telephone number that was best forgotten.

Because no matter how often the doctors, the mothers, the priests and politicians tell us that there’s nothing good about a bad habit…we know they’re wrong. Because the habit in and of itself isn’t the problem. We are.

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“When women go wrong, men go right after them.” Mae West

Chance Encounters

[image error]Sixth Form Poet (@sixthformpoet on Twitter) told a terrific story this week in the form of a tweet thread on Twitter, and it’s a damned enjoyable short read that got me thinking.

My dad died. Classic start to a funny story. He was buried in a small village in Sussex.

I was really close to my dad so I visited his grave a lot. I still do. [DON’T WORRY, IT GETS FUNNIER.] I always took flowers and my mum visited a lot and she always took flowers and my grandparents were still alive then and they always took flowers. My dad’s grave frequently resembled a solid third place at the Chelsea Flower Show.

Nice, but I felt bad for the guy buried next to my dad. He NEVER had flowers. Died on Christmas Day aged 37, no one left him flowers and now there’s a pop-up florist in the grave next door. So I started buying him flowers. I STARTED BUYING FLOWERS FOR A DECEASED MAN I’D NEVER MET.  I did this for quite some time, but I never mentioned it to anyone. It was a little private joke with myself, I was making the world a better place one bunch of flowers at a time.

I know it sounds weird but I came to think of him as a friend.  I wondered if there was a hidden connection between us, something secretly drawing me to him. Maybe we went to the same school, played for the same football club or whatever. So I googled his name, and ten seconds later I found him.  His wife didn’t leave him flowers BECAUSE HE’D MURDERED HER. ON CHRISTMAS DAY. After he murdered his wife, he murdered her parents too. And after that he jumped in front of the only train going through Balcombe tunnel that Christmas night.  THAT was why no one ever left him flowers.

No one except me, of course. I left him flowers. I left him flowers every couple of weeks. Every couple of weeks FOR TWO AND A HALF YEARS.  I felt terrible for his wife and her parents. Now, I wasn’t going to leave them flowers every couple of weeks for two and a half years but I did feel like I owed them some sort of apology.  I found out where they were buried, bought flowers and drove to the cemetery. As I was standing at their graves mumbling apologies, a woman appeared behind me. She wanted to know who I was and why I was leaving flowers for her aunt and grandparents. AWKWARD.  I explained and she said, “OK that’s weird but quite sweet.” I said thanks, yes it is a bit weird and oh god I ASKED HER OUT FOR A DRINK. Incredibly, she said yes. Two years later she said yes again when I asked her to marry me because that is how I met my wife. –Sixth Form Poet

It’s an extraordinary story, but I think if we look at our own lives and how we tend to collect the people in them, we’ll find some rather unexpected coincidences, synchronicities and all out oddities. I’ve met pivotal friends and loves in all sorts of unlikely places. Like a 400 year-old building with no electricity, a gruesome photography exhibit that documented sexual depravity, and in the poetry section of a tiny bookstore – when I don’t even read much poetry. I’ve had destiny-altering encounters in exotic foreign locales, and quite literally, in my own backyard.

Case in point, here are two of my nearest and dearest friends. I met Michele (center) only weeks after I’d moved to Prague, when she utterly dismissed the idea of my ever working at the English language newspaper where she was an editor (I didn’t have a journalism degree and she disapproved of the way I’d dressed for my job interview, among other things). And I met Dale (the artsy lady in black) in San Francisco. At that time I was a new arrival to California, having relocated there for my husband’s job. I didn’t know a single soul.

It was a bit intimidating meeting Dale, as I was in an in between place, professionally, and she was a big-time magazine editor. Dale agreed to have coffee with me thanks to an introduction by Michele, who had by this point reformed her first impression of me :). We met around the corner from Dale’s apartment, in a quirky little coffee shop that also served wine, like they do everywhere in northern California. For some reason that establishment had the Czech words for Men and Women (Muži and Ženy) marking their corresponding bathrooms – even if the owners had no connection to Prague or anyone or thing in the Czech Republic. In retrospect, being a superstitious Czech girl and all, I should have seen that as a sign.

To make a long story short (or at least, shorter), Dale and I hit it off instantly. We gabbed for hours about books and storytelling and art. Finally, after graduating from coffee to a fine Napa Valley chardonnay, we revealed to one another our quasi-secret desires to write fiction. I’m not even sure how it came about, given that we had literally just met, but from that day onward, Dale and I became writing buddies. 

It was one of those things that just sort of evolved. Every time we got together, there was so much to say that we felt compelled to make another date. It became pretty clear early on that we might as well make it official between us, so we set up a fixed time and place – Thursdays at Momi Tobi Cafe. We had these weekly fiction dates for years, reading each other’s stuff, and talking in depth about what most moves us in a story and why. Dale gave me excellent criticism that always challenged me to do better, think through my thoughts with more precision and empathy, be an advocate for my reader. 

And we shared deeply personal parts of ourselves as well. About the frustration and heartbreak of a faithless lover, the helplessness of watching a family member struggle with mental illness, the perpetual feeling of “otherness” that had characterized our lives. In one of those incredible, lucky strokes, I gained a lifelong friend, and got one-on-one tutelage from a first rate editor with a sharp, inquisitive mind and a profound love of fiction. If you check the first pages of The Bone Church, my debut novel, you’ll see it’s even dedicated to Dale. She is literally the reason I ever got up the gumption to write that book in the first place. And it’s all because I blew a job interview.

(Here I am at a book signing for The Bone Church at the Virginia Festival of the Book)

There is a beauty and cosmic elegance to our chance encounters. Not all of them, certainly. We meet people nearly every day, coming and going from the store, the post office, the veterinarian. Introduced to us by mutual friends, acquaintances or colleagues. Lightening doesn’t always strike. But when we look at our lives from afar, we can see how everything interconnects…we can chart the way inevitabilities have woven themselves into some of our most banal appointments. The ones that end up changing our lives, reworking our fates, even fulfilling our wildest dreams.

I often wonder in what ways my own encounters with readers will weave their individual destinies? How things I may have written, and stories you may have told me about your lives have changed us both in some seemingly invisible way that will make itself known somewhere down the line.

It’s an awesome and exciting prospect and I thank you all for taking this journey with me. Were it not for you, it would be a lonely a joyless trek.

(That’s me, Michele, and Dale down there on our girl’s weekend in Sea Ranch, CA this past weekend.)

Living Up to Our Inner Hero

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“It’s my anniversary,” she said.

Knowing that she and my late dad had been married in November, not May, it was clear she didn’t mean that anniversary.

“May 1st is when I celebrate going to jail,” she clarified.

In 1958, when my mother was nearly sixteen, she was caught trying to escape Communist Czechoslovakia and imprisoned. My grandfather, who had snuck back into his former homeland to retrieve his daughter, was also roughed up, handcuffed and dragged into custody. In fact, he was hauled into the same cinder-block interrogation facility where my mother was locked up.

They’d been separated for ten years already at that point, my grandparents having fled Czechoslovakia in 1948, after being tipped off about their pending arrest on some very serious trumped up charges. But they’d left behind their three young girls – naive in their hope that the Red Cross could negotiate the children’s release.

For my mother, that was ten years of persecution and fear. For her parents, it was a purgatory of anguish and regret.

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My mom looks so lonely in this photo

Desperate, my grandparents had, through a network of political refugees like them, been put into contact with a Czech Catholic priest who was running a sort of anti-communist sting operation out of Vienna. From there, this man launched daring rescue operations that sent willing family members like my grandfather, and former military officers, like the men who accompanied him, behind the Iron Curtain in order to retrieve and free people who were being oppressed and held against their will. People like my mother.

Only things had gone terribly wrong, obviously.

But the Czech government was willing to be reasonable, they said. If my mom would only give the name of the priest in question, all would be forgiven. My grandfather could then lead Czech agents to the rogue priest so that they, in turn, could kidnap him from his home in Vienna and imprison him in Prague. Perhaps conduct a show trial. My mom, and subsequently her sisters, would be set free and allowed to leave the Soviet Union. My grandparents would have their girls back. Everyone would get what they wanted.

“And I said no,” my mom said, curling her hands into tight, white-knuckled fists. “It’s the best thing I’ve ever done.”

It was a heroic act. For both her and her parents. It cost my mom another ten years of hardship and my grandparents another ten of heartache. Yet they chose to spare the life of a man they hardly knew – my mother had actually never even met the priest – over their own considerable interests.

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This is not a photo of the priest in question. His identity remains a secret.

I think about heroism a lot.

My own comfortable American life has presented me with few genuine tests of my convictions. My sense of honor and indelible notion of right and wrong are still largely theoretical, as I’ve never been presented with the quandary of having to choose between my beliefs and my life, for instance. Or even my beliefs and my career for that matter. Not even my reputation and community standing has ever been seriously threatened because of something I’ve said or done, simply because I believed in it.

The closest I have come to having to wrestle between my moral convictions and my peace of mind, has had to do with my son.

My seventeen year-old son has dreamed of being a Marine Corps officer since he was a child. So focused has he been on this path that there are few Halloweens where he was not dressed up as some sort of soldier. After a couple of years as dressing in the same Marine costume, I actually said to him, “Don’t you want to try something else? Maybe Spiderman?”

“Sure,” he said in his usual affable tone.

That Halloween he came downstairs – candy bag in hand – dressed as a zombie Marine.

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The infamous zombie Marine costume

Still, all of this seemed very far away. I was proud that he was drawn towards the noble and heroic and have always objected on principal to parents who think the military is just great as long as it’s not their kid who’s signing up for active duty. I certainly never thought of myself as that kind of person.

But I don’t know. Maybe I am.

As my son prepares to apply to the United States Naval Academy – his first choice for University over any institution of higher learning, I find myself getting anxious and staring up at my ceiling late into the night. Watching “The Battle of Winterfell” on Game of Thrones this week took on a whole new meaning for me.

I saw my son in every character who was fighting those damned white walkers. In the ones who triumphed – leaving a bloody trail of undead “corpses” in their wake. And in the ones who didn’t.

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Jon Snow kicking some white walker ass

I’ve never shared my fears with my son. I know his dreams are not about playing war and that military service offers far, far more than the potential for fighting on a battlefield. Nor are his ambitions to be trifled with. I’ve watched many a parent step between their child and an innate passion and live to regret it.

“I don’t want to go away to school just to party,” my son told me. “I want to do something that matters.”

He wants to lead men and women, serve his country, maybe go into politics one day. I get it.  It’s a helluva lot more than I wanted out of life when I was his age.

“But I’m scared,” I told my husband. It was just after we’d watched Arya Stark kill the Night King with her dagger made of dragon glass.

“We know parents who’ve lost their kids to drugs and suicide,” my husband noted. “Would you rather have him believe in nothing?”

Of course, I wouldn’t. I know we can’t mitigate every risk for our children and that trying to do so is a fool’s errand. I’m glad – for our son’s own emotional well-being – that he wants to do something that feeds both his heart and mind, instilling in him a sense of value and purpose. There are many ways to do that, certainly, but this is the way he’s chosen and I respect it.

And if he changes his mind, I’ll respect and support him in that decision, too. I’ll even put on a look of banal detachment and try not to look so happy about it.

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My son and I on our trip to Prague a few years ago. Here we are on a movie set.

In the meantime, I’m going to take a note from my mother’s playbook, which is not something I do very often. There are a lot of things she and I disagree on – in some cases violently. We’ve argued about everything from politics to child-rearing philosophies, the way to wash a dish, do a load of laundry and baste a turkey. Really, there are too many to name.

But what I will always concede to her is her innate sense of heroism. She and my grandparents gave up a lot for faith in a higher ideal. Even after my mom risked everything to escape her native country, and finally arrived on the American soil she’d always of dreamed of feeling squish between her toes, she refused sit back and let herself off the hook. Announce to the world that she was done and it was somebody else’s turn. In fact, my mom actually made my older brother do ROTC to give back to the nation that had taken her in. She’d already lost one son to the flu when he was just a child, and even that didn’t stop her from asking her surviving boy to serve.

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My mom and my son

Now, to be fair, as a teenager, I thought she was crazy and swore I would never do that to my own kid. My brother was not too keen on the prospect of military service and I thought it was wrong for her to force her convictions on him. And I guess I still do think it was wrong, even if I admire her commitment to civic duty. Even if my brother doesn’t regret having served.

That’s why, as my son works towards being an Eagle Scout this summer and trains for a marathon; as he continues to try like hell to get all of his ducks in a row to be a contender in a very competitive selection process for a spot at the United States’ premier service academy – one attended by the likes of Senator John McCain, President Jimmy Carter and astronaut Jim Lovell – I’m going to swallow my fears, blot the night sweats off my brow and do whatever he asks of me. I’m going to try to live up to my principals and code of honor, and do my damnedest to be in some small part the person I always hoped I would be when faced with a real moral dilemma. In other words, I’m going to endeavor to be half the person my son is shaping up to be.

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My kid at about age 12 – dressed in his paternal grandfather’s World War II Marine Corps uniform

 

Talking Love and Fiction With a Life Enthusiast

[image error]Britt Skribanek is a good soul.


We’re online friends, which is always such a weird thing to say. But over the years we’ve had some wonderful conversations…about love, about writing, about following what is in our hearts. We’ve also bonded over our very own real life love stories. How we didn’t see love coming, but it up and blindsided us anyway…taking us to places we’d only read about and had always hoped were real, but didn’t quite believe.



I’ve been a guest on her blog The Life Enthusiast Chronicles and am thrilled to have her on COLD, as she’s gearing up to rerelease all three of her novels in paperback editions! Nola Fran Evie, Beneath the Satin Gloves, and Everything’s Not Bigger.


Her books are fun, well written, and so worth your time. Here’s what Readers’ Favorite has had to say about them:


“Britt Skrabanek has written an entertaining and illuminating historical novel in Nola Fran Evie. From wartime challenges, to racism and sexism, to challenges faced by today’s career women, many historical realities are presented through the life experiences of four women. Both engaging and informative, this story is a true delight!” – Readers’ Favorite

“Beneath the Satin Gloves is a time travel novel set in the dark and terrifying era of WWII Germany that is well researched and incredibly well written. It’s easy to slide into the 1940s and feel as though you are there. A beautiful thriller with a tragic edge to it, this is a read for anyone who loves a strong heroine, who just wants to lose themselves in a story they won’t want to end.” – Readers’ Favorite


“Everything’s Not Bigger is not the stereotypical coming of age novel so often portrayed–it’s quite another thing and it’s absolutely marvelous. A young woman’s life is disastrously turned awry by her relationship with a meth addict. Skrabanek deftly weaves a spell over the reader as they follow Jaye’s seemingly superstar existence and begin to understand that something is indeed wrong…something only she can fix. An enthralling story and a joy to read.” – Readers’ Favorite


And here’s what Britt had to say for herself when she agreed to submit to my advanced interrogation techniques.

SPOILER ALERT! You’re really going to like her.

(FYI, my questions are in bold, her’s are not.)

You know love is a big theme for me…how does your love story intersect with your writing?

Love is always a big theme for me as well. That’s one of the things I really love about your writing, Victoria.



My love story with my husband Mr. H is damn miraculous. We swore we would never get married to anyone. We thought everlasting love was complete and total bullshit. We grew up in very different corners of the country leading somewhat parallel lives. We entertained love, but we didn’t buy into the concept because we intentionally removed ourselves from it.



Then, our lives collided. Everything we thought we knew changed.



We were young, crazy, and in love. We got married in some shitty hotel in Vegas. Our wedding is still remembered by everyone who attended, because it played out like a romantic comedy. (For those who have seen Four Weddings and a Funeral, that was a close depiction of our disastrous wedding…minus the funeral).



Mr. H and I are celebrating 14 years of marriage in a couple of months. I used to say we didn’t know how we made it this long, but now I wouldn’t say that at all. We know that marriage is a partnership and we worked our asses off to hold onto our love. We know that we wouldn’t still be here in this life if we hadn’t found, loved, and saved each other.



Our love drives my fiction forward—and some version of me and Mr. H. are always the main characters. Every tear, every kiss, every fear, every wish comes from our story. All of my books have a recurring theme that explores how “love can save us.” The meaning of love is different for everyone. But, there is no denying love’s power and its ability to save us…if we let love in.

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It’s funny, I’ve met so many women who write about love – mostly romance novelists, actually – and they all contravene the stereotype of the lonely woman writing the love stories she wishes she herself could be living.

These writers – and I would put myself in this category, too – are all happily married and began writing about love precisely because they wanted to share their discovery with readers who might be feeling that true love is elusive, or has at least eluded them. They feel touched by the relationships they’ve developed with readers, writing on such a personal topic so elemental to the human experience.

Do you find that readers reach out to you and want to talk about love? If not, what do you find your readers want to talk to you about after reading your stories?

I suppose that since my novels are not intended to be part of the romance genre, my readers don’t typically talk to me about love.

Since I focus on strong female characters, I have been asked before whether my novels are written specifically for women. But they are not. My dad raised me and I’ve lived with my husband since my early twenties, so I’ve always lived with a man. I try to infuse that male perspective into my writing, which brings balance while appealing to men who do enjoy reading my novels.

Going back to the love conversation for a second though…I will say that my blog and social media followers always go a bit bananas when I write about my marriage or share a sweet image of me and Mr. H. There is a distinct spike in engagement and conversation because people want to hear about real romantic moments. I don’t know if that’s related to my books or if it’s just a coincidence.

I started noticing that “love” spike a few years ago. Even though so many of the people who follow my blog are into thrillers and noir – the most engagement I get is with posts that have to do with love in some variation.

And it’s interesting you bring up men. I think you and I have had a similar experience in this regard. Strong male relationships in our lives = being able to write strong male characters who appeal to both men and women.

How do you go about building a male character?

Building a male character tends to be very natural for me, because my brain is always fixated on my husband. I’m around him ALL the time. We live in a tiny one-bedroom apartment and we’ve been running a business together the past two years. People can’t believe we haven’t gone all The War of the Roses on each other yet, but here we are.

I love all of my husband’s habitual movements, like the way he takes out his phone while waiting for an elevator or to be seated at a restaurant. He only looks at his phone for a second or two—he’s checking the time since his phone is his watch. He rocks back on his heels, sighs, then returns his phone to his front left pocket. I know when he’s about to do it and I suppress a smile as I spy on him.

Whenever I am writing a scene with a male character, I close my eyes and imagine what my husband would say and what he would do. Oftentimes, I stare at him and creep him out when he’s in the same room with me.

Also, my husband and I have collaborated plenty of times on my male characters. I have asked him how he would react to a scenario and he plays make-believe with me to reveal those insights. I read some dialogue from a male character aloud and ask him if it sounds realistic. He’s also named two of my main male characters, Lauren in Nola Fran Evie and Webb in my latest yet-to-be-published novel, Virasana.

My husband is my confidant and I suppose he is my muse. Am I allowed to say he’s my muse? I have no idea. Shit, he’s going to die if he ever reads this.

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What do men, specifically, get out of your work? Is it different than what women get out of it?

Roy McCarthy, a longtime blogger friend—and an amazing author himself—wrote this great, endearing review for Nola Fran Evie a few years back. In one section, he wrote: “I was glad, at the end of Chapter 26 I wasn’t reading in public—I was in floods and had to take a break.”

Another male reader I lost touch with through Facebook left a review that said: “I find Britt’s words to be joyful but at times heart-wrenching.”

So, basically I make grown men cry. I don’t know if I make women cry as they’ve never mentioned it to me. I hope I make women cry too—that means I’m doing my job.

How do you go about building a world in your fiction? What experiences help you in that regard (travel, museums, long walks)? What details help bring the world alive for you, and subsequently your readers?

For instance, since I don’t travel nearly as much as I used to, I use Pinterest to visually build my fictional worlds and go from there.

Travel is crucial for inspiration when I’m building a fictitious world. I tend to avoid writing about places I’ve never been to. I expect that one day someone might rightfully call bullshit if I botched up the name of a street or the location of a building, if I ever attempted to fabricate the whole setting. I’m very careful and respectful in that regard.

I typically travel to places I know I want to write about. I go into the trip knowing that I need to collect even the smallest details and moments so I can feel the pulse of a place and reimagine it later.

What aesthetics are most important to you?

My editor says I talk about smells a lot, for instance. What details help bring the world alive for you, and subsequently your readers?

I am really into the senses, and I wrote a blog post some years ago called How to Amplify Your Writing with the Five Senses, where I completely nerded out on this technique. We just talked about building a world. The senses are how I build an experience.

While writing my latest novel, Virasana—which is a dystopian fantasy novel set in a futuristic Portland, Oregon—I became obsessed with Soundsnap. It’s an incredible online tool where you search and listen to any sound you want.

Take streetcars, for example. I’ve hard them plenty of times here in the city. To refresh that sound in my memory, I would listen to the sound via Soundsnap as I was writing that particular scene…with my headphones on, so I didn’t drive my husband completely crazy, of course.

I take the senses very seriously. I think we owe it to our readers to create an immersive experience. Integrating the five senses is one of the best ways I know to accomplish that, assuming I’m able to convey the mood successfully.

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What are the three elements that are always present in your fiction and why?

For me, it’s some level of spirituality, a heavy dose of atmosphere, and I almost always address this question: How would you behave under the worst possible circumstances (war, etc).



Cities as characters.

I’ve lived in cities all my life and I’ve visited cities all over the world: Havana, Prague, Mexico City, Stockholm, Berlin, etc. I love the energy of a city and how there are always so many conversations, thoughts, and interactions dancing this insane choreography.

In my novels, the city is a character in its own right—one that must survive. Berlin in Beneath the Satin Gloves, Prague in Everything’s Not Bigger, Chicago in Nola Fran Evie, and Portland in Virasana.

2. Golden-age thinking.

I first heard the term in Woody Allen’s incredible film, Midnight in Paris. I’m totally guilty of golden-age thinking and I once had quite the vintage dress collection to prove it. I fall into the habit of thinking the past was more simple and grand.

I love writing historical fiction novels, because I don’t have to write about smartphones and computers. We have so many technological distractions today. When I write, I am escaping too…a historical era provides the ideal setting for modern escapism.

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3. A ruthless love story.

I am such a sap for unapologetic love stories. It’s rare when I find them, but Atonement comes to mind. It was so beautifully jarring—I bawled when I read the book and I bawled (like, machine gun sobs) when I was leaving the movie theater.

In my work, love is the driving force. If I decide to sacrifice a main character, their love has a way of living on. When my laptop keyboard is wet with my own tears, I know I’ve captured the raw magic of love in some small way through my heart, through my fingers, and through the page.

See, I told you Britt’s a good soul. An old one, too.

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And here’s what her books look like!


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Beneath the Satin Gloves

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Everything’s Not Bigger

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And here are all of Britt’s links:

Britt’s Amazon Author page:

https://www.amazon.com/Britt-Skrabanek/e/B008P09DKA

Website / Social:

https://brittskrabanek.com/

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Repeating History: Why Writing About the Past Matters

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Historical fiction writers are in a deep funk. Sales are down in this great genre and most agents aren’t even looking to take on hist-fic novelists unless they’re somehow the type who can can get their stories folded into other genres like thriller or fantasy.

The success of novels steeped in history – ones like Outlander – are apparently not having the rub-off effect historical fiction authors have hoped for either. You’d think they would – readers and TV audiences alike have demonstrated that they’re just mad about Scottish guys of yore; ones in skirts with terrible hygiene and hard luck stories to boot. Why not medieval monks, Spanish conquistadors, American frontiersmen or Victorian era adventurers?

And you can’t blame the lull in historical fiction on readers and watchers who might be turned off by complex narratives that require (God forbid) a little work. Historical fiction readers love a good saga and world-building has extended far beyond the usual suspects. Game of Thrones, while not historical per se, has definitely proven that a well-appointed world is all the rage. Not only have audiences gobbled up that labyrinthine narrative, but both the show and the novels have managed to ensnare even the most die-hard fantasy haters who would normally loathe anything involving a flock (?) of dragons, a dwarf, a princess or two, and an army of undead knights.

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Most of the historical fiction authors in my various writers groups are frustrated beyond belief, and many lay the blame not at the foot of market forces or lazy, disinterested readers as much as today’s hyper politically correct culture. They suspect this very restrictive climate is manipulating the market, denying oxygen to what was once a thriving category of fiction.

It’s a point worth exploring.

We can start by looking at what’s been happening in young adult fiction, when recently two authors voluntarily pulled their books from publication after having been attacked, mostly on Twitter, for “not having the right” to tell the fictional narratives portrayed in their novels.  One of the novels explored, through a fantasy-inspired world, human trafficking in Asia and the other was a gay love story that takes place during the genocidal civil war in Yugoslavia back in the 1990s.

These authors were called everything from privileged to disgusting and were excoriated for their alleged insensitivity – racial and otherwise. Blindsided, they quickly issued statements about being “deeply sorry” for having offended anyone, and promising to take time to “reflect upon” any insensitivity on their part and “the pain [they’ve] caused.”

On a purely civic level, language like this causes the hair to stand up on my arms. As the daughter of political refugees from a totalitarian regime, I admit I have a difficult time being on the fence about compelled apologies by anyone – especially artists. It is, after all, through art that we can safely explore our darkest impulses, try to live for a short time in the body and mind of someone who is an utter stranger, in a place that is foreign to us.

I remember reading Love in the Time of Cholera in my twenties and being gobsmacked at how every page seemed to be speaking directly to me. I was so moved that when I finished the novel, I actually went back and immediately began reading it again. If I could have, I would’ve called author Gabriel Garcia Marquez just to say, “How did you write a woman so true to my own conscience that you made me cringe and re-evaluate myself?” You, a Columbian man born in 1927 and me, an American woman born more than 40 years later?

Such is the magic of unchained literature; the vast and noble journey of the human imagination.

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I’ll be honest, I really don’t know much about the young adult books in question. I haven’t read them, and it looks as if I won’t ever have the opportunity to see for myself what all the fuss is about. What I do know is that their authors – an Asian-American and African-American who also happens to be gay – are themselves members of the very minorities to whom the publishing world has been trying to give a voice.

And now their voices have been silenced. Even worse, these authors have chosen to self-censor.

To add a layer of cosmic sarcasm to this saga, the African-American writer in question, a young man by the name of Kosoko Jackson, was a former “sensitivity reader” who flagged potentially “offensive” content for young adult publishers before snagging his first, and highly anticipated book deal. This implies that not only are stories with “sensitive” characters or plotlines being punted from the slosh pile at major publishers, but the ones that are being accepted into the fold are subjected to a smoothing of rough edges that undoubtedly removes what could be construed as offensive, while also conceivably expunging the very heart and blood of a story. The quirky bits of color which make us ponder, regret, shudder, laugh out loud or grit our teeth in fury. 

And the reason this trend sends a particular chill down the collective spines of historical fiction writers…and, I assume, most agents and acquiring editors, is simply because nothing is more controversial, laden with political bombs, than history itself.

It’s hardly a wonder that few literary professionals are willing to take a chance on a genre that focuses exclusively on times that played out before the woke awakened. Ones involving people and events that actually happened and are hard to sanitize without compromising nuance, context and substance. In other words…artistry.

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An inherent part of this dilemma is that readers of historical fiction tend to be sticklers on historical content, too, and actually want to see the world through the eyes of one of its past inhabitants. Warts and all. They reject a yesteryear that has been dressed up for current mores or is too staunchly condemned. Most true lovers of history have that itch to learn from a character who they might come to see as a good man, despite the fact that he’s conflicted about an unpopular war, his relationship with his wife or daughter in an era long before women’s rights, slavery.

Seems to me we could gain a little bit from that perspective. Maybe if we could learn to love, or at least understand a character who came out on the wrong side of history, we could extend that compassion to someone today. Empathy is the lifeblood of historical fiction, after all. It’s also a vital element of a well-functioning society.

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Whatever the objective reasons for the downtrend in historical fiction – and I have no doubt there are multiple variables involved – the fact is, many authors have come to feel the current climate creates a vicious circle in which historical fiction can’t win. The writer can’t write from the historical context the reader craves because the editor won’t accept a shaded representation of the past, because the online mobs – an itty-bitty and increasingly despised fraction of readers I should add – would throw a hissy-fit.

If indeed the historical fiction sales crash is a casualty of this cultural swing, it’s a conundrum to be sure.

Yet, I believe we need only to look at trends from the past to find the answers. If our beloved history does indeed repeat itself as many historians allege, all of this, too, shall pass, rendering these very mobs as merely:

“Dress’d in a little brief authority,

Most ignorant of what he’s most assur’d…”

…If I may quote the greatest historical fiction writer ever to grace the Earth – William Shakespeare.

And if I can borrow from science here as well, Newton’s law tells us that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. So, maybe, just maybe, a resurgence of historical fiction is just around the corner? But while we wait for this tempest in a teapot to run its course, we can take comfort in the fact that there are some really good indie-published historical fiction authors who will keep the candle aflame. People who don’t care about mobs or trends…just readers.

For your reading pleasure, here’s one. Her name is Octavia Randolph and her bestselling books have charmed readers all over the world.

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About Octavia: I write the kind of book I want to read myself. I write about history as a way to better understand my own times. I write about people who are far better, and (I hope) far worse than myself. And beautiful objects inspire me: the hand-carved combs, skilfully wrought swords, and gemmed goblets of the world of The Circle of Ceridwen Saga. Almost everything interests me; I’ve studied Anglo-Saxon and Norse runes, and learnt to spin with a drop spindle. My path has led to extensive on-site research in England, Denmark, Sweden, Iceland, and Gotland – some of the most wonderful places on Earth. In addition to the Circle Saga, I am also the author of Light, Descending, a biographical novel of the great 19th century art and social critic John Ruskin: Ride, a retelling of the story of Lady Godiva; and The Tale of Melkorka, taken from the Icelandic Sagas.  I’ve been the fortunate recipient of Artistic Fellowships at the Ingmar Bergman Estate, Fårö; the MacDowell Colony; Ledig House International; and Byrdcliffe.

Check out Octavia here!

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