Alexa Bigwarfe's Blog, page 34

Lying Cold and on the Floor

I couldn’t stand up. I did not want to stand up. I did not want to get dressed or eat or leave the apartment. I just lay still on the floor as tears rolled down my face. I was paralyzed by something I just did not understand. I was afraid if I left to go […]

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Am I damaging my daughters?

We live in the beautiful state of South Carolina. I was transplanted here back in 1989 at the age of 13. While still young and impressionable, I was not a child and I had to really work hard to fit in here as a teen. Eventually I made a group of friends that became my […]

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A Little Bit of Sunshine After the Storm

In October, I edited and self published my first book, Sunshine After the Storm: A Survival Guide for the Grieving Mother. I rounded up over thirty other parents who had experienced the loss of a pregnancy, infant, or child, or have had to deal with infertility. While I wrote the frame of the book, the […]

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Free is Fun! #JollyVoxBox2013

Two months ago I was invited to a LegoDuplo House Party by one of the mom’s in my moms club. I had never heard of House Party before, but I thought, “that sounds fun!” Tiny and I attended the party. I learned all about House Party and was amazed. You register for free, answer some […]

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Welcome 2014… goodbye 2013

How it got to be January 6th already is mind blowing. Today the kids started back to school, and somehow, even though I knew Bean had to be at preschool at 9am, I thought I had a whole additional hour to get ready. Neither of us were dressed when I looked at the clock at […]

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Tales from (quite possibly) the worst mommy ever

OK, so I do not really think I am the worst mommy ever, but I am starting to believe that I am the worst stay at home mother. I don’t cook well, clean well, bake well, organize well… I”m not crafty, I can barely manage to get my kids in clean clothes every day, let […]

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In the Moment

I took some time off from the blog. Not really on purpose, I just ran out of time and decided that for the whole week of Christmas, what I really needed to do was focus on my family. I wanted to be in the moment. I avoided Facebook, Twitter, texts, phone calls, and internet (for […]

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Something Amazing

We must capture those moments when something Amazing happens. Memorialize it forever; in our hearts, on our camera, on our blogs… some place. Today, something amazing happened. Tiny pointed right up to one of the butterflies decorating her wall and said “butterfly.” (OK, so it came out “bee-fly” but she is speech delayed – cut […]

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Happy 2nd Birthday to my #TTTS Survivor

My TTTS Survivor is TWO! Today is sweet Tiny’s 2nd Birthday. We celebrated on Saturday night with the family. It physically pained me to NOT put Kathryn’s name on the cake as well. But the thing is, I don’t want to take away from the joy and happiness of the day for my living twin […]

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Does Google Know it’s my Birthday?

I got up to check my email and do some other stuff, and I was a little freaked out when I opened my web browser and saw this: I mean, in a way, it’s kind of cool, right? Google told me Happy Birthday. In another way, it really freaks me out. Google told me Happy […]

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